Page 120 of Knot Here for You

By the time I get to the part where I saw my guys with another omega, I’m crying. The reality of what happened hitting me hard. Sorrel keeps her arms around me, rocking gently.

“I can’t get ahold of Dr. Attersby,” Davis mutters as he enters the room, shaking his head.

I fidget with the blanket over my lap as Sorrel hugs me closer. “Yeah, I doubt she’ll be showing her face after drugging me.” That has his head snapping up and all five of my guys focused on me with intent gazes.

My best friend lets out a delicate shiver at all the alpharemones in the air. Her fear kicking in a notch, even though she has to know they would never hurt her. Not unless they want me to castrate them. She kisses the side of my head and slides out of the bed, her sneakers squeaking on the floor. “I’m going to go grab a cup of coffee and make a phone call.”

When the door closes behind her, Topher climbs onto the bed, taking the vacated space and cuddling me into his chest. “Tell us?” I love that he poses it like a question and not a demand.

I take a deep breath and meet the eyes of the alphas in a semicircle around the bed. “Ford said someone drugged you. I’m guessing that means what I saw… You weren’t in control?”

Davis picks up my hand, lacing his fingers through mine, his thumb stroking back and forth over my skin. “Of course, we weren’t. We would never…”

“She smelled like you, angel. She had your pheromones somehow. Like she was on the verge of going into heat.”

I nod again. Sorrel and I worked out that much. “Yeah, I think Dr. Attersby… harvested them from me… if that makes sense? I… she drugged me so I couldn’t move my arms and legs and then she injected me… My heat started literally minutes later.” My legs squeeze together as I remember them spreading my legs, scooping up the slick that gushed out of me with each cramp. Did they just rub it directly onto the woman I saw them with? Or did they create some kind of spray with it? God, I feel so fucking violated.

The air turns acrid with my distress and every one of my alphas purrs, trying to ease me, even as I can tell they are fucking pissed. Topher smooths his hands up and down my arms to soothe me in the only way he can. Fuck, it helps so damn much. I snuggle deeper into him.

“When they were done, they just left me there in pain, unable to move. I think they underestimated the power of my heat… the first real one I’ve had in years. It was enough to burn out whatever they gave me that kept me from moving. I knew I needed to find you. I knew I wouldn’t survive if I didn’t… If we didn’t…” I don’t finish, because even though we all know where this is going, I’m embarrassed by my body’s need. “I made myself get up. Dragged my ass out of the office.”

Jackson’s jaw ticks. “We should have known something was up when Maxim demanded we see him right when your appointment was.”

We really should have. Hindsight and all that. But… “None of us could have seen this happening. I mean, who even does this shit?” I mutter, sinking against Topher. His lip press into the back of my head.

“Our father, apparently,” Davis says, sounding… guilty.

“Hey.” I kick my foot, barely touching his thigh with it to get his attention. “None of this is your fault. It’s his. He did this. Not you.”

He doesn’t look convinced, but he nods anyway. I sigh and shift on the bed before changing the subject. “So the doctor—not Attersby, the one that was just here—she, uh… informed me that my heat is coming. There’s no stopping it. She’s giving me a prescription for painkillers because she thinks, given my history, it’ll be more painful than normal.”

Topher kisses my head, while Jackson watches me intently. “What can we do to help, baby girl? Do you want us to see you through it? Or do you want to wait?”

Davis glances at the door. “I’m sure we could work out something that would let you sleep through most of it, relatively pain free. They do that to some omegas, right? Ones that have lost their packs? A medically induced coma or something.”

I look down at where Asher is gripping my hand, clear my throat again. “The uh, doctor, she recommended…” I honestly can’t believe I’m going to say this right now, but I’m an adult and it’s not like we haven’t done this before. Well, not all the way… but close enough and I know once I’m in the middle of heat I’ll be begging for cocks and knots like my life depends on it, because maybe it actually does. “Orgasms.” I blurt out. “Lots and lots of orgasms. She suggested starting like now to head off any pain that might creep up, before any spikes or anything.”

They all just stare at me, but I don’t miss the bulges growing in my alphas pants or the one currently pressing into my hip from Topher. Ford shifts forward just the slightest bit. “Just to be clear, pip, you want us to give them to you, right?”

I nod. “Yes,” I breathe. Then make myself say in a stronger tone. “Yes. I do. And I would prefer to start sooner rather than later. Not because of the doctor’s orders, but because I don’t want our first time, the first time with any of you, to be while I’m in heat. I think we deserve more than to have it be because of instincts and hormones.”

Asher picks up my hand and presses a soft kiss to my palm. “I agree, angel.”

“How long do we have before your heat comes back?” Topher asks.

I shrug. “She didn’t say. But I can’t imagine it’s that long.”

Jackson nods once. “Okay. Then we need to get you out of here and back to our house, into your nest, so we can get started as soon as possible.” He heads toward the door, presumably to find the doctor or an administrator to hurry along my discharge.

“Wait, Jacks,” I call out and he spins back toward me, gray eyes sweeping over me like he’s worried I somehow got hurt in the ten seconds he wasn’t looking at me.

“What do you need, baby girl?”

I take a deep breath and squeeze Asher’s hand while my other twists in the blanket over my hips. A clear sign of my nerves. This is going to be a big ask. I know it, but I also know it’s right. It’s what I need, what we all need.

So I lift my eyes and meet each of their gazes. “Before my heat, I want you to bond me.”

Rule 30: Always follow your doctor’s orders

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