Page 13 of Deep Connection

“Stop, oh my God, Jason. You have to stop!”

She didn’t want me to stop, even though she was repeating herself. She even pushed me away and it took me a minute to realize I had to quit. Abigail was breathing hard, and she took a step back. “I didn’t realize that was going to go there.”

I couldn’t see her, of course, but I knew that she was pulling herself together. She was buttoning up her shirt because she had a long day ahead of her. I wanted to make the most of our time together. I assured her that I didn’t need any physical therapy, but Abigail denied me what I wanted. She instead told me why I didn’t need anything else from her but therapy to feel better.

“Are you really going to make me wait until this evening?” I asked incredulously. I was so hard, in need, and I would have done anything to have her.

“Who said that I was going to do anything with you this evening?”

I was presuming, of course. I was ready to do anything if that meant that she was in my arms. There was something about the way that she made me feel indestructible and that was saying something because a few months ago I was seriously wondering what the point of it all was. It was confusing and there was never a better time than now.

“You have to come over. We have unfinished business.”

“I can’t promise anything.”

I sighed and told her that I would have to do what I could here in her office.

I hadn’t meant it as a bad thing, but once she pointed out that I was threatening her, I could see why she would think that.

“Just tell me you will come by later and I will be able to get it off of my mind.”

She agreed and I was happy to see that she wasn’t even hesitating. I didn’t hear a waver in her tone at all. I pulled her in, sure I was able to rub my hard length against her. It was a bit crass, this way I reacted around her, but now, things were different. I was going to have her underneath me in just a little while. It was planned and there was no getting out of that.

Abigail moved back and we finished the session, but there was no more touching. I think for different reasons, neither one of us really wanted to go there again. I myself didn’t feel like I could handle a round two with her, not right now if I couldn’t bury myself inside of her. No matter how hard I tried, Abigail was just as elusive as she was in the beginning.

11

Abigail

Jason wouldn’t leave the room until I said that I would go out with him. Worse than that, I was going to meet him at his place again, and this time there wasn’t going to be anyone to interrupt us. Jason said that he wasn’t going to let it happen again and I believed him. He looked so frustrated when I’d said that I was going to leave before. The cop being there and how he was looking at me was all the convincing that I needed. I didn’t want to stay around him, no matter what it was he was doing there.

When Jason left, Dana had lots of questions, I could see it on her face, but thankfully I was behind, and she didn’t have any time to ask all of those questions. I was grateful for that. If there was anything I wanted more, it was the way that he had made me feel before. I thought that it was almost too good, my memory of it all. It couldn’t be real.

The rest of the day dragged on and I had lunch with Dana. She was full of all of the questions from before and I had no good reason to tell her no. I wished that there was a reason, but there wasn’t any. She wanted to know what was going on with Jason, which was a fair question. I knew that I wasn’t acting the way I usually did, so I could see how she would be wondering about it. I thought it was unfair to question it too much though. I was over the moon with it all.

“We just have this connection.”

She scoffed, “I really thought that he was going to be a problem.”

Abigail agreed that she had thought the same thing. He did have a quick temper, as he had shown when he had first showed up there, but Jason was getting better in all ways. I stared off for a moment, looking off and Dana brought me back. “You really like this guy, don’t you?”

I told her that I really liked him. “I am sorry, I know that you were eying him too,” I started. I was waved off and Dana told me not to worry about it. “He really does belong with you. I don’t think I have ever seen you this happy before, and you haven’t even done it yet, have you? I hope that he is everything that you hope him to be.”

I nodded. “Me too. I am still trying to figure out if he is worth the drama or not.”

Dana said that he was, almost at once. She said it so fast that it made me laugh. She was something else and I knew that it was because of her pep talk, that later that night when I got off and got ready to go to Jason’s, I went. I was so nervous, but Dana’s words echoed in my ears. I really liked him, she was right.

I didn’t want anything to go wrong. There was so much that I didn’t know about Jason. Maybe I should try to find something out, instead of what we had done so far. I couldn’t believe that there was still someone that could make me feel anything. Guilt was all I had felt for so long. It was nice to have something else to feel.

Jason answered the door and he had on tightish jeans and a shirt that showed off his biceps and nice physique. I didn’t think he would be able to hide what he looked like, even if he wanted to. I saw that he had low lights in the living room and candles going. He had set the mood, because the candles weren’t for him. The atmosphere was nice, and he had once again surpassed any sort of expectations that I had about him. He really was amazing in all sorts of ways.

“You look good.”

He sighed and told me that I did as well.

“Are you just guessing?”

Jason shrugged. “There is no way that you are anything but.” He moved back so that I could come in. I didn’t linger out there long. I wanted to get back and I knew that it was going to be better inside. It felt like the mood was right inside. Jason was making it clear what was on his mind. It had nothing to do with getting to know each other.

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