Page 20 of Deep Connection

After Kyle was gone, Abigail leaned her head against my shoulder and said how safe she felt with me. I liked the sound of that, but there was something else on her mind. I asked her what it was, and she just shrugged and made a sound. “I don’t know. I have a lot on my mind, I guess. This has been a whirlwind with you. You came out of nowhere and I don’t know what to think.”

I asked her to give me an example and Abigail sighed. “You came out of nowhere Jason. I was doing just fine without love and that part of life, but now I am afraid of what happens if you go away. I don’t know what I should do. I don’t like feeling that way about another person. It makes me nervous.”

I sighed and agreed. “I feel the same way. I care too much, and I shouldn’t. I haven’t for a while. Maybe it is because we are both broken.”

She shook her head. “I wouldn’t say that.”

“No? Then what would you say?”

“I would say that we’ve seen the dark side of life more than others. Isn’t that what we signed up for when we went into the military? I knew that it was going to be dark. If you want to be the light for other people, you have to be in the dark some too.”

I told her that it sounded like poetry, and it was true. I knew that I was willing to sacrifice everything for my country. Everyone that signed up knew that, I was no different. Many wouldn’t pay that price though. It was hard to feel the same about it when the price was so high. I thought of not seeing Abigail and the doctor’s appointment that was supposed to change everything.

I kissed her finally; I was unable to stop myself any longer and Abigail’s tone changed. She had that purring sound coming out of the back of her throat, and it was one of the sexiest things I’d ever heard. She was constantly pulling me in with her actions. I didn’t have to see Abigail to know that she was one of the most amazing women I’d ever met in my life.

The kiss always turned into something else when it came to Abigail. She was on my lap, straddling my legs, and I could tell that she was ready to move forward. I felt like she would straddle me when she wanted to take some control. I didn’t mind giving it up for a time, as long as I could do everything I wanted to when she had come too much to function. I knew from historical data that she would, I could get her to crumble. All I had to do was take the reins after she dropped them. It was my whole plan, so she had some control for a while. Not too long though.

She rode me slowly, taking off clothes as she went. Abigail acted like she was liberated, and I couldn’t help but think that I would do that for her anytime that she wanted it. She was amazing and she felt even better. Abigail also was a woman that got exactly what she wanted out of it. I learned what she liked by how she took me. It was hot as hell and when she collapsed on top of me and couldn’t barely kiss me back, I asked her if she was done.

She whimpered and agreed that she was. I wasn’t though, and I told her it was my turn. That made her whine as I sat her upright, hands on her waist. I pushed in and out of her repeatedly. She just felt so damn good and the trembling with every few strokes was more than I could have asked for. I loved the way it felt, and I needed more. I moved her on top of me faster, feeling like both of us were going to scale down at any second.

I moved her deeper and pulled her down for a kiss. I wanted her to know that we were connected. Her moaning was loud, and she was getting sidetracked, but I wasn’t going to let that happen for very long. I got back to what I was doing, and Abigail made the sweetest sound as she called out. I heard my name on her lips and while I wanted to prolong our time together, I wasn’t able to. Hearing her call to me was too hot, and I lost myself in that moment. I filled her with my seed, grunting at the pleasure that was pouring out of me. Abigail felt too damn good. I swear I didn’t know what I was going to do with her. I was afraid of what would come next.

She laid on me for a time. I was still inside of her, and I started to reharden because of her movement. She made a sound and then popped off of me, telling me that I wasn’t going to trick her into anything. I wasn’t trying to, but I could hear in her tone that she meant it.

“I am so lucky that I found you, Abigail. I can’t even imagine my life without you in it.”

She purred and stretched. “That was my plan all along. I was going to make you fall for me and then never let you go.”

She was right, I was never going to let her go. We stayed like that for some time, in each other’s arms. I felt better than I had in a long time, but there was something about the way she was on me. I tried my best to get myself together, to not show all the emotions I felt when I was with her, but it was harder than it sounded. Abigail was my destiny, I could feel it, which meant that I was going to do anything I could to keep it going.

When I started to talk to her a bit later, I realized that she was sound asleep in my arms. Again, I was stuck with discomfort, but if that was the only way that I would have her, then so be it. I wasn’t going to move until she was awake. I stayed up for a very long time, waiting for her to wake up from her nap. Somewhere along the line, I was able to get some sleep too.

I thought going to bed with Abigail was great, going to sleep with her in my arms was one of the greatest things. But what wasn’t great was how badly I wanted her when it was all said and done. I woke up to her nestled in my arms and I swore I was in heaven. I wanted her, at once. My body got stone hard, and I hated that it was the first thing that came to mind. It was hard for me to figure anything out, besides sliding into her. She was still sleeping though.

Instead, I awakened her body with my lips and hands. I heard the moan that came out of her, and it was still one of the sweetest sounds. I would have never guessed that Abigail would wake up as horny as me. She did though and settled down on top of me. Again, she wasn’t in charge for long, but she brought us both to pleasure. I didn’t think I was ever going to get sick of the way she felt.

When it was all over, Abigail kissed me in the sweetest way and stretched. “I think that may be the very best way to wake up.”

I had to agree, I thought the same. No matter how badly I wanted to stay with her forever, I had an appointment in the city, and I told her that I had to get up. She whined and since she had no patients that day, she asked me what I was doing. I didn’t want to tell her about the doctor and how it could change everything. It could also do nothing, so bragging about it or talking about it at all was unadvised. I was still running on the idea that it could all go to shit. I was hopeful though.

“I have a checkup that I have to go to. You know, medical shit never ends.”

Abigail agreed and said that she was going to let me get to it. I didn’t want her to leave, but I hoped that she would come this evening, and she agreed. I was alight with desire when I thought about it. We kissed and Abigail left. A part of me left with her.

17

Abigail

Iwanted to stay with Jason. I wouldn’t admit it or do anything else to make it happen, but I wanted to stay. I would have stayed in bed with him the rest of the day if it was an option. It was for me. I was lucky to have a mid-week day off, but Jason was ready to go. He wouldn’t say much about his doctor’s appointment. I knew that it wasn’t any of my business, but it felt like it was. I had claimed him in a way that determined I was supposed to help him be well. I didn’t think he was ready for that yet though, so I kept all of my questions to myself. He would tell me when he wanted to tell me.

Since I had today off, that meant that Dana had it off as well. I got a call a few minutes after leaving Jason’s place. I was only a block or two from home and when I saw the number, I almost didn’t answer. I didn’t want to talk to her while I was driving. She would know that I wasn’t home and that I’d stayed the night somewhere. She would find out that it was Jason that I was with, and she would never let me live it down.

“Good morning,” I started, trying to sound as casual as possible. I didn’t even turn my signal on to turn, just so that Dana wouldn’t know that I was in a car.

“Where are you?”

I was pulling up onto my road and it was Dana’s car in my driveway. I didn’t know how long she had been here, but she had a look on her face, phone in the crook of her shoulder and a couple of cups of coffee in her hands. Her load was full, and I felt bad that I was the one that had left her like that.

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