Page 30 of Deep Connection

I felt my face getting red. “It’s been a while.”

He agreed but said that it hadn’t been that long. He had that look in his eyes, the perfect words on his lips. He knew what I wanted. He always seemed to know, and I have to say that it was unnerving. “I have been waiting for more than just seeing your face, Abigail. I can’t wait to see all of you.”

I didn’t know what to think of his new mood. He said all of this, but it wasn’t long ago that he wasn’t sure if he liked me at all. When I asked about that, anger flooded his expression. “That was something that had to be done. I didn’t want to say any of that. You could tell, couldn’t you?”

“I don’t know about that.” The truth was that those few words, a minute of my life, changed everything and broke my heart. I would have likely continued to follow him if not for the baby.

“Are we going to talk about the baby?” He finally got in.

I clasped my hands together. We were on the couch, and I was looking toward the bottle of rum on the sidebar. I wished I could drink. I needed something to calm me down. It was hard for me to feel calm in this moment. Jason was finally here in front of me, and I had so much to say, but nothing was coming out. The more I tried to say something, the less that came out. I squeaked about something, but it did me no good.

“Okay, let’s talk about it.”

“I take it that it’s mine,” Jason said.

“Is that a question?” I wondered.

“No, it’s not. I know that it’s mine, and I guess I just wondered when you were going to tell me or if you were going to. You left in the way that you did for a reason. I had no one to tell me what was going on, and I think that was how you wanted it. The problem is that there is more to this story, don’t you think? What made you run?”

I sighed and looked at him. “I almost died because of you, Jason. And if it was just me, I would have done it again, but then I found out about the baby in the hospital, and I had to get away. I had to keep our baby safe, even from you.”

The look he gave me was devastating. I didn’t know what to say next. I didn’t think anything was going to help.

25

Jason

“Things have changed since we saw each other last, Abigail. I’ve changed.”

She looked skeptical, but I assured her that I had. She needed to believe me, but for now, I would let it ride. It had been a long time and since I’d finally found her, I wasn’t going to let her run off again. I was so afraid that she was going to run off again. I wasn’t going to be able to take another heartache like that. It was more than I was willing to work at.

“There was a lot about you that I would have never changed, Jason.”

“Yes, well, the bad parts have changed. My temper is under control, and I have been going to therapy. I wanted to be the best man that I could be for you, now I have so much more work to do, to get prepared for our baby. I just can’t believe that we have a baby coming. This is surreal. I hoped to find you, but I never thought about you being with child.”

I looked off for a moment and I told myself that there wasn’t going to be as much emotions inside of me. I was trying desperately to fight it. I was so happy to see her and to know that she was carrying my child was probably the best thing that I could think of. I wished that I could figure out why I was this lucky. I had my miracle eyesight back and the miracle girl that was now pregnant with my baby. I didn’t think anything got better than this.

“It’s okay, Jason, it’s okay to feel something. I am glad you do. It is a lot that is going to make me happy, everything is going to change. I thought I was going to have to do it alone, but I am glad you are here, and you don’t hate me.”

I took her hands and kissed them. I held her like that, forcing her to look at me. “I could never hate you, Abigail. I just wanted you to stay away so that the doctor wouldn’t do anything to you. He had a bullseye on your back, and I had to call you off. If I didn’t, well, I don’t even want to think about it. I was promised that you would be given a quick death. I couldn’t let that happen, now, knowing that you were pregnant…” My rage knew no bounds once I started to really think of it. I was going to have to visit the doctor again. I was back and forth on it, was it worth it, but I had my answer now.

“It’s okay. I made it. I woke up in the hospital and found out. It made me realize that I couldn’t chase after you. As much as I wanted to, I had to let you go. I moved this far away because I didn’t want to go back to you. I didn’t move here because I was afraid of you. The truth is that I don’t trust myself with you,” Abigail said.

I paused for a moment, absorbing her words and wondering if they were right or not. I always figured that she was afraid of me because of my mood swings and emotions. I had a lot of crap to sift through and getting a level head for Abigail had always been the target. I never would have guessed that she did it to keep herself from falling back in love with me. I wasn’t sure how to feel about that. It was a lot easier to think of something else, anything else but that.

“You ran away to keep yourself from me?”

She pressed her lips together and struggled to look me in the eyes. I swear there was something wrong with the way she looked at me. It was the same as usual. There was something she was hiding and the more I tried to focus on what it was, the more confused I became. I finally just kissed her. If she was that ready for it, I would tell in her kiss. I had shocked her earlier when our lips had met, so it was different than before. This time, she saw it coming and she kissed me back. Abigail pressed her body against mine, and I tried hard not to let it all mess with me. It was really hard, considering how quickly she changed from touching me, to rubbing awakened parts with her body.

I growled and asked her if she wanted to still talk. That was what she had said in the beginning, but now I didn’t think that it was clear. There was something about the way that Abigail looked at me when I pulled back. She wasn’t thinking about talking anymore. She had a flared look of desire in her eyes, and I could tell by looking at her that she wasn’t going to let it all go easily.

If nothing else, the kiss showed me that I should be worried about how it was all going to work. I wanted Abigail to understand that there was something going on between us and it was going to go there quickly if we didn’t stop it. I tried my best to focus on something else, but there was really nothing that could be done. Abigail leaned back in for another kiss, and I was left in the lurch.

As soon as our lips touched, I couldn’t think straight from that moment on. Abigail moaned as I touched her and I swear, it was the hottest sound that I could think of. Everything with Abigail pulled me closer to madness. As soon as my hands were on her and I was able to enjoy the feel of her in my arms, I pulled her closer and made sure that the sensitive parts of us were lined up. The feel of her heat and the sound of her desires were all I could think of. Abigail had certainly filled me with expectations and as always, they were just as good as I remembered them to be.

I pulled her onto my lap. There was one thing that I’d thought about when I finally found Abigail, getting her back in my arms, underneath me. Worse than that though, I desperately wanted to watch her ride me. I had wanted to see it since she had ridden me the first time. It had felt amazing, and I was quite sure that the sight was going to be even better. I knew that seeing it would be something that I would never regret.

When I got her positioned above me and she felt the hard length that I had for her, Abigail made those sounds that I still heard in my head. It had been a long time since I’d heard such noises, but my reaction was the same. I got harder and my body trembled slightly for a moment.

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