“Hurry up!” I spit on the floor and refuse to look at my Yu-jin.
I can’t.
I can’t look at him like that, lifeless, without losing my willpower and composure, and I need both right now if I’m to ever get him back.
Ryan opens his eyes and, with a deep breath, says, “It’s done.”
“He’s still out, douchebag!” Jace crawls next to his friend, taking the words out of my mouth.
“I’ve released him from his dreams. You…you just need to wake him.”
I push Jace out of the way. If I hurt him, I can apologize later. Right now, I need my boy back. I need my soulmate to look at me and tell me he’s okay.
“Yu-jin.” I shake him. “Darling boy, wake up.” I bend and kiss his lips and watch him, waiting.
My heart can’t take this anymore. It’s beating so fast it may just explode before he even opens his eyes.
“What’s going on?”
“Oh my God, he’s dead!”
“Is that blood? Shit, someone call security.”
The voices get louder and louder in my head. Yet all I can focus on is him. My one and only Yu-jin.
“Get the fuck out of here.” I hear Jace shouting.
I don’t care. I really don’t care. They can watch. They can call security. They can call the fucking president. I don’t give a rat’s ass. I just need…
Yu-jin blinks. His gorgeous brown irises get smaller and his pupils bigger as he slowly comes to life and his eyes adjust to the darkly lit dorm room.
“Lu…Lucian? Is that you?”
“Yes, my love. It’s me. It’s me.” I wrap him in my arms and close my eyes.
He smells of yuzu and coconut even after everything that happened. Even after all the blood spilled in this room, he smells like the most beautiful, the most innocent, the most refreshing young man in the world.
“Is this real? Am…am I dreaming?” he mumbles into my collarbone, and I let go of him only for a moment. I cover his mouth with my lips and make sure he knows this isn’t a dream. That the nightmare he was trapped in is over.
He kisses me back with the same fervor as ever. The same hunger as always. Has he missed me as much as I have missed him?
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, my boy. This is all my fault. I left you all alone. I left you unprotected. I wasn’t thinking. I wasn’t using my mind. I won’t let that happen again. Will you forgive me? Will you forgive my sins?”
I can’t let go of his face. I can’t stop staring into his eyes. I can’t help the tears running down my face.
“I thought…I thought I’d lost you. I thought?—”
“Lucian, baby, what are you talking about? This isn’t your fault. This isn’t your fault at all. Not for a second. Please stop apologizing. You have nothing to feel sorry for.” He hooks his finger under my chin and drives me back to his lips.
“I don’t know what I’d do if I ever lost you,” I tell him when we pull away.
“I don’t know what I’d do either.” He smiles, and his eyes sneak glances to the sides. “Jace?”
As he lets go and hugs his friend, I watch him take in his surroundings, take in the entire room, and realize the audience watching from outside the door.
“What the…?”
“That shithead tried to hurt you again. He used his friends to stop Lucian, but I helped,” Jace says all in one breath. It takes a moment to register what comes out of his mouth.