He strode to the room without answering and cradled Nicole against his chest. He rocked her in his arms, whispering soothing things into her ear while he rubbed her back.
The tension dissipated from her body, and suddenly I understood. It wasn’t about having the right answers. It was about being the right person. Nicole needed Matt because she loved him whether she wanted to admit it or not.
There was a hollow pain in my own chest at the sudden epiphany. Ryland needed comfort too whether he wanted to admit or not. His pain was four-fold what Nicole was going through, but he’d never let on to it. He’d never allowed himself to be vulnerable in front of me. He took his pain and twisted it into anger, and it was the only thing holding him together.
Would he ever accept my help, even if I were to offer it?
Matt understood my unspoken question as he looked into my eyes with a solemn expression.
“It isn’t your fault,” he said. “You can only help those who want to be helped, Brighton.”
A solitary tear slid down my cheek as I jerked my chin in agreement.
“You’ll take care of her?” I croaked.
“Always,” he replied.
***
The sound of Ryland’s angry voice carried down the hallway, and I ran towards his door with what little energy I had left.
Three nurses and a doctor surrounded his bed, threatening him with a needle as he tried to claw the blankets off.
“Ryland?”
My voice made him pause, and his face filled with relief as he sank back against the pillow.
“Brighton.”
He breathed my name as if it were the only thing in the world that mattered to him.
I drew towards him slowly and clasped his face in my hands, trying to smooth away the worry in his eyes.
“What’s going on?” I asked.
The doctor huffed and gave the nurses a curt nod as they backed away from him.
“He said he was coming to find you,” the doctor replied.
Ryland’s helpless expression dissipated as I stroked his hair and gave him a weak smile.
“I didn’t know where you were.” He tried to justify.
“He says he wants to be discharged,” the doctor spoke again. “Although I would highly recommend against it.”
“Ryland, you can’t.”
This had to be difficult for him, being out of control. I could see the same fear in his eyes he had whenever I was late, or he thought something had happened to me. What most people would say was completely irrational seemed like the most rational thing in the world to him. He’d lost everyone he’d ever loved.
“I’m not staying here,” he growled. “I fucking hate hospitals. And I can recover at home just as well.”
“They won’t let you go,” I argued. “You can’t just walk out of here.”
“Actually, he can.” The doctor sighed. “If he signs a waiver, unfortunately, there’s nothing else we can do to keep him.”
The doctor looked at me as though I had some sort of power to sway his decision. He obviously didn’t know Ryland Bennett.
“Stay a couple more days,” I pleaded. “I’m not going to leave your side, I promise.”