It was a tale as old as time. The servant on her knees, covered in blood, with the master enraged above her.
But I always liked the darker books—where the servant killed the master and bathed in his blood.
“It’s Sadie, not whore.” I grabbed the belt mid-swing, and his beady eyes widened in surprise.
Time stopped as we both gripped the edge of the weapon.
I focused on the lever in my brain: the little switch, that if I tipped just right, set me free.
The numb clicked on.
Endless numbness.
Cold relief.
All my emotions poofed out of existence, and the world became less vibrant. Colors held less hue.
My scattered, emotional thoughts dissipated into cool nothingness.
The endless rage, pain, sadness just disappeared. I was hyper focused on the threat and eliminating it.
It was the only reason I had survived my teenage years under Dick’s increasingly violent abuse.
The switch in my brain flipped me into an emotionless bitch that could survive anything.
The only downside was the numb needed to recharge after each use.
When I’d turned twelve, the numb had suddenly appeared.
It had arrived too late to save my voice, which was rough from screaming during beatings, but it kept me alive.
Now everything inside me was cold, icier than the glaciers outside.
Sweep out his legs. Take the belt. Wrap it around his throat and kill him.
Dick startled out of his shock, and a snarl contorted his face. The twitch of his right eyebrow was his tell.
Things were about to get even bloodier.
Dick wrenched his arm back and flung my small body forward, but I didn’t release the belt.
Superficial flesh wound, no internal damage. Sweep his leg. Punch out his ACL.
My legs snapped forward, and I swept his legs out from under him. Dick hit the deck with a thud and crashed over chairs in the empty tavern.
He released the belt.
Wrap it around his neck.
He roared on the ground, and I pounced. Before he could move, I had the belt around his neck and was choking him. His big, meaty elbows flailed backward and rammed into my ribs. He broke bone, and I didn’t flinch.
Tighter.
When I was numb, pain didn’t register.
Dick struggled and slammed my body back into a table, but I didn’t release him.
His swollen face turned purple, and his beady eyes popped out of his head.