Page 37 of Lust & Lollipops

“You’re holding back so you don’t look like a threat,” I interrupted. “Right?”

“Of course I am. I’m not leaving this game without your soul tied to mine.”

“If you were on that island with me, you could’ve been voted out the next time. You had to be here. I need you with me at the end so I don’t have to marry a stranger, Cam.” My voice shook a little.

“I know, Loll.”

“So stop blaming yourself. It happened, but it’s over. I’m okay.”

“You’ve been pale and quiet all day. You’re not okay.”

I let out a long breath and shook my head against his chest. “I’m not… I don’t know. It was just… I’ve never liked sex. I’m just confused.”

Cam squeezed me, then eased us both to the sand. I ended up on his lap again, like I had the last two times we met there, but it felt different.

More comfortable.

More intimate, maybe.

“I heard you use your vibrator in the shower a few times a week, Lollipop. You like sex,” he said, his eyes meeting mine.

It should’ve felt weird to be sitting on Cam’s lap. And talking about that, with him of all people. We’d been enemies. Or at least rivals.

Or maybe just friends who liked to argue. I wasn’t sure what to call us anymore.

But it didn’t feel weird.

It felt safe.

And right.

“I like orgasms,” I corrected.

“You do know that sex is a way to have orgasms with another person, right?”

I rolled my eyes. “I know that’s the theory, but it doesn’t really work like that. Never did for me, at least.”

“You didn’t have the right partner, then.”

“You’re not wrong about that. I guess I convinced myself that there was no right partner. And the dreams just… surprised me.”

“Did you dream about me?” His gaze was curious, in a dark way that made me a little warm.

“No.”

“Did you want to?”

“I would’ve preferred it over dreaming about them.”

He tapped my temple. “I don’t like knowing you have mental images of the other men on this island fucking you. I really don’t like knowing you don’t have one of me in there too.”

“Don’t you?” I drawled.

“No. And I’m tempted to do something about that, Lolli.”

“Like what?”

“Like slip my hand into these ridiculously small shorts and play with your clit until I get to watch you come on my lap.”

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