Page 157 of That Last Secret

I angle my head in confusion. "I came back to you and my best friends. Yes."

"No." She shakes her head, her hand coming to her stomach as I look down and see what she's doing. "You came back to us."

"I don't understand."

She pulls herself off me, and I immediately hate the loss of contact and feel an uneasy feeling in my gut. She looks ready to deliver the worst news of my life.

"After they brought you into the ER"—she winces, as if the memory hurts her to say out loud—"I had a panic attack after seeing you flatline."

My eyes fall closed as I release a sigh and think about how much I fucked up everything. How much it now hurts to know that I wasn't fucking there for her.

"I ended up passing out from it. When I woke up, the doctor told me they ran blood work."

I hate that I put her in this much pain, and the old me would’ve wanted to run so I could avoid ever putting her through that.

But I could never bring myself to be without her.

Falling in love with Emiline was the easiest thing I've ever done, and I never want to be without that feeling.

The corner of her lip turns up just slightly. "It turns out we’ve been having a little too much fun."

My eyebrows furrow as I continue to stare at her.

"We're having a baby, Logan."

Did she just say what I think she just said?

A baby?

We're having a baby?

I continue to stare at her in confusion. "A baby?"

"I was just as shocked as you are right now. I know we stopped using protection and I don't have all the answers as to how this happened. There was a day or two I missed a dose of my birth control, but I got right back on it," Emiline rambles. "I don't want you to feel like I trapped you. I've been terrified and anxious for you to wake up. I needed you awake and alive, but I knew that would come with having to tell you the news. I wasn't sure how you would react or if you would feel like I was trapping you. And I just…" She sighs, allowing herself to finally catch a breath.

I reach up and take her hand in mine.

"We're having a baby."

She nods.

I keep my eyes locked on hers as I slip my hand out of her hold, placing the palm of my hand over the lowest part of her stomach before my gaze lands on where my hand rests.

I say nothing because I don't even know what I should say.

The news ignites something inside of me I never knew I wanted… needed.

A life is growing inside the woman I love more than anything.

A life we created together.

A life that allows me to see the future so fucking clearly.

"All my life…" I start to say but choke on my words from the overwhelming emotion flowing through me. "I've never wanted this."

The disappointment on Emiline’s face is evident, but I continue anyway.

"I never wanted to find someone to spend my life with. I never saw a future with a wife, kids, orpeopleto come home to. My only focus has always been on my job. From being a little kid and following in my father's footsteps. But I see things a lot clearer now."

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