“Where are you off to?” he asked slyly. “Didn’t you just finish your heat two months ago?”
I flushed even hotter. “I’m taking a week’s vacation,” I mumbled, not quite able to meet his eyes.
That was probably what gave me away.
“A week’svacation?” Hayden asked, moving away from the fridge and biting into the sausage with a salacious look. When he finished chewing, he went on with, “Is this asexyvacation?”
I huffed a sigh, trying to pretend like he was being ridiculous.
Hayden’s eyes went wider. “Thisisa sexy vacation!” He gasped as he figured things out, and said, “You signed up for the Dark Fantasies Club, didn’t you.”
“I don’t want to talk about it,” I mumbled.
“You did!” Hayden put the sausage on the counter and rushed right up to me. “You’re doing a Dark Fantasies fantasy!”
He was way more excited about it than I wanted him to be.
“Should you really be talking about things like that in front of your infant?” I asked.
“Junior is seven months old. He doesn’t know what we’re talking about,” Hayden said. “And besides which, I want him to grow up with a healthy and realistic attitude towards sexual relations, particularly since we’re certain he’s an alpha.”
My brow went up at that. Outside of the unnecessarily expensive testing process, when a baby was born, it was impossible to tell at first whether they were an alpha, an omega, or a beta. Usually, it became obvious before a child’s first birthday, especially to the parents. Neither Hayden nor Mason had mentioned anything to me about Junior yet, though I wasn’t surprised.
“Are you going to tell Dad and Papa? I bet Papa will be pleased,” I said.
Hayden shook his head. “Stop changing the subject. You’re off to do dirty, dirty things with an alpha you’ve never met.” He grinned wickedly at me, but also like he approved.
I went back to flushing red-hot. Hayden wasn’t going to stop pestering me unless I told him everything, although there was no way I was going to tell himeverything.
“Yes, I signed up for the club and made a profile on the app,” I murmured, not able to look him in the eyes. “Yes, I’m going off to have my first fantasy.”
Hayden’s eyes went wide and his face pinked with delight. “This is amazing! I’m so happy for you and so proud of you.”
He grew serious a moment later, shifted Junior to his other shoulder, then asked, “Why didn’t you tell me earlier? Why didn’t you ask me to be your second? Do you have a second? You do know how the whole thing works, right?”
I sighed, shifting nervously. This was exactly why I hadn’t told Hayden anything.
“I called up your friend Ari, and he’s acting as my second,” I said. Hayden opened his mouth, but before he could blurt his disappointment and indignation, I went on with, “You’re my brother, Hayden. My little brother. And even though you’re a thousand times better than me?—”
“I am not,” Hayden interrupted.
“—I don’t want you as part of my sex life,” I continued, ignoring his interruption.
“But it’s so much fun to swap nasty stories,” Hayden objected with a big grin.
I sighed again. “It’s private,” I said. “I…I feel awkward enough about things as it is. I don’t need you to make me feel any weirder about…about my inclinations.”
Hayden stared flatly at me. “Simon. I’m your brother. I met my husband through the Dark Fantasies app. I like having alphas I don’t know kidnap me and force-fuck me.”
My whole body went so hot with embarrassment that I thought I would melt the kitchen and all its appliances.
“Well, that’s what I used to like,” Hayden said, his grin turning heated and adoring. “Now, all I want is Mace. Although we definitely still keep things spicy in the bedroom.”
“I don’t want to know,” I said, gripping my bag tighter and marching past him to the garage door. “I don’t want to know about your love life any more than I want you to know about mine.”
“Aw, that’s no fun,” Hayden said, following me into the garage.
I hit the button to open the garage door, then crossed to my car, tossed my bag into the backseat of my car, then opened the driver’s side door. I couldn’t just walk out on the brother I loved and who had introduced me to the Dark Fantasies Club, though.