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“Well, everything I admitted to you is pretty much what would be on that list.” I grin at her. “But you have adult store on your list and…” I nod at the venue, “it’s no longer raining. So how about we go and check it out?”

Chapter Twenty-Two

Indy

Ialwaysthoughttheonly man who would touch me would be Gray. He was my first and he was gentle, sweet, and patient. He made me orgasm that first time when most of the girls I went to school with didn’t get to experience that even after multiple partners. I promised him he would be my last when I said yes to marrying him.

Until tonight, I believed that would be the extent of my experience. The way Theo told me what he wanted to do to me still has my mind reeling. The fact that he has piercings…I’m curious enough that I consider untying the drawstring in his shorts and tugging the waistband away from his abs so I can see.

Now he’s holding my hand as we walk into the well-lit shop with its front window of mannequins dressed as nurses, and cops, or in nothing but a leather halter and gimp mask. So weird.

It’s going to take a breath to get used to Gray not being my home. But Theo is helping it hurt a lot less than I thought it would. Parts of my heart will always belong to Gray, but Theo holds some too. He’s crowding out the pain and the doubt.

He wraps an arm around my waist as we walk around looking at the dildos and vibrators. At the wall of handcuffs and hot wax candles and feather whips. At the rainbow of dildos in all different sizes. At the sex swings and harnesses and collars.

The heat in my cheeks must be a beacon. This girl has never set foot in an adult store before. I do own a vibrator, but that was an online purchase; and yet still became embarrassing when it was accidentally delivered to my neighbors—the discreet box damaged enough to be obvious what was inside. I really loved the way they looked at me when they brought it over to our house.

“Hey.” Theo presses his lips to my temple. “Remember how you thought giraffes were creepy with their weirdly erotic blue tongues?”

“Of course.” I follow the direction he points; to a display of blue alien looking vibrators that also somehow kind of look like tongues.

“Oh God.” I cover my mouth as an awkward laugh escapes.

“We have to take a closer look, don’t we?” His breath is hot on my skin. The growl in his voice makes my breath catch.

Curiosity has me walking over to the display. I want to say I’m not intrigued, but the idea of what it would feel like…it stirs something inside me. Makes my belly quiver.

“Do you know what I imagined when you were telling me about that?”

“Whatever it was, it was dirty.” I clear my throat. Swallow the excess saliva. He’d told me as much, made me slap his hand.

“You.” He smooths his hands from my elbows to my shoulders. Lifts my wet hair from my nape and puts it all over one shoulder so he can kiss the side of my neck. “Naked. Splayed on my bed. That vibrator stretching your pussy and making you orgasm.”

“That’s what you imagined?” My voice is barely there. My whole body is on fire as I envision it too.

“Many, many times.” He bites my earlobe. “I’d watch you take it. I’d control the vibration. It would be the hottest fucking thing I’ve ever seen. And when you were done with the toy, I’d fill you with the real thing and you’d take it all, wouldn’t you? All of me?”

“Theo.” My breath quickens, and I close my eyes. God, I want that. I want to experience it all. I want to feel the kind of alive that I only feel with him. “You’ve been thinking about that this entire time?”

“I have.” He drops a hand to my belly, fingers pointed down, then inches them that little bit further to the apex of my thighs. "I want to put it on my bucket list. If you’ll let me?”

Maybe the guy at the counter can see or maybe he can’t. Theo isn’t actually touching me inappropriately, but my whole body is on fire with anticipation. I nod as I turn and pull him against me. Press up on my toes and kiss him.

Like before, we combust. He crowds me back against the wall as he tortures my mouth with the sweet promise of more.

Blue vibrators fall off the shelves around us as he lifts me up and uses the display wall to balance us. One bonks him on the head.

“Hey, stop that.” The man leaves the counter to come and yell at us.

Theo laughs as he slides me down his body. He lets me go to grab the closest blue alien vibrator in a box. He holds it out to the man with a look of contrition. “We’ll take this one. And whatever lube you recommend.”

He pays for the vibrator, and we step back into the night. It’s super late and I’m not sure what happens next. Do we go back to his place and immediately put that blue alien vibrator to use or…?

“What now?” He opens the truck for me to climb in. Then goes around to the other side. “Should I take you home?”

“I…don’t have a home.” I moved into Gray’s condo because we were getting married, but now…I’ll have to pack up my things. I’ll have to move everything back to my parents’ house. EJ is going to take it the hardest. I’ve broken his best friend’s heart. How do I smooth things over for my brother and parents? They don’t deserve to lose another person they care about. We’re going to have to find a way to coexist. Perhaps I should have thought about that before I lied about sleeping with Theo.

“Indy?” Theo covers my knee. “My place is a dump, but it’s yours for as long as you need it.”

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