Page 69 of The Heartbreak List

I don’t know how long we stay like that. Eventually I suggest a shower and she agrees. I check my phone and let her use my toothbrush while I adjust the temperature of the water then lather her up until she smells of my shower gel. Having my scent all over her makes me want to put my mouth all over her. My cock inside of her.

I kiss the side of her neck down to her shoulder before she turns in my arms. I lift her up and press her into the cool tiles. She reacts eagerly, throwing her arms around my neck and pressing her tits against my chest.

I graze her ass crack with my fingers. It’s definitely on my bucket list. She shivers and lets out a little moan.

“You ever?”

“Never.”

I raise a brow. “Pity. One day.”

She stills and so does my ability to breathe. We’re both aware that our time is finite. Later and one day aren’t guaranteed.

“I want to experience it all.” She kisses me. “Everything with you.”

Now that we’re not hiding what we want from ourselves and each other we can barely keep our hands off of one another. But if we don’t finish this shower, sex will be the only thing we do today.

I slide her body down my front as I put her back on her feet. Squeezing shampoo into my hand, I lather up her hair as gently as I can. It falls out in fat strings around my fingers. I noticed last night how much it’s thinning. There’s no hiding how much her scalp shows through under those lights above the bar. So I made the call and texted someone who could help while I was making the hot chocolate last night. “We better finish up. We have somewhere to be.”

Chapter Twenty-Four

Indy

“Thebariswherewe needed to be?” A half-finished warm beverage in each hand, I ignore the itch to look at my phone. I’d probably drop one or both of the drinks and my phone if I tried to juggle all three. But I need Gray to text me back.

“It is.” Theo nods as he unlocks the door then pockets his keys.

I hand him back his coffee so I can finally check my notifications. I texted Gray almost an hour ago, before we left Theo’s to grab breakfast and coffee and come here. I’m wearing last night’s dress. I’m wearing the same panties. I need to pick up the rest of my meds and some of my things.

“He’s not responding?” Theo holds the door open for me as I slide my phone back into my purse.

“Would you want to respond?” I broke Gray’s heart last night. Under normal circumstances he probably needs space, but I told him I cheated on him. He needs time without having to see my face. I need my meds more. “If he won’t talk to me I’ll have to beg EJ to collect my medication for me. I only have enough supply to get me through tonight.”

“If he cares as much as he says he does, he won’t want you to not have them.” Theo follows me inside, closing the doorbehind him. “I can take you.”

“Thank you, but I don’t think that would help the situation.” It’s silent in here. A complete reversal of how loud and boisterous it was last night. The glasses and empty bottles have been cleared away. The floor and bar cleaned and polished.

There’s the spot where we danced on the bar. Where my world finally shattered into a million unfixable fragments and I could no longer deny what was between us. And that’s where Gray stood, no doubt watching us the entire time while it dawned on him that I wanted another man. It all seems so much worse in the quiet without the people swarming around. I recall Gray’s face when my feet were finally back on the floor…how angry he was when he drove away.

I hurt him. And that hurts me. Breaking Gray’s heart was never going to be something I came away from unscathed. I put my cup of hot chocolate on the counter. My stomach is too unsettled to finish it. I wrap my hands around my elbows as though that can stop my heart from shrinking.

“You didn’t do anything wrong.” Theo slides an arm around my shoulder, his hand resting above my heart. His chest against my back chases away the emotional chill. He presses his lips to my temple. “Not one damn thing. You care about everyone, Indy. You care so much that you don’t want anyone to hurt. But you can’t stop pain. Trust me, I’m the king of trying to numb away everything that matters. It still makes itself known. It has to be felt as much as happiness or anger or love.”

I turn for his comfort. For his kiss. Because being with him makes everything hurt a little bit less. Taking his jaw in my hand, I bring his mouth down on mine.

He sneaks his tongue between my lips, and I whimper at the possession. There’s happiness here. Affection. Lust. Things that I want to feel no matter how fleeting they might be.

A feminine clearing of the throat breaks us apart before the kiss becomes naked and vertical dancing on the bar.

Theo lifts his gaze over my shoulder and his mouth curves widely. “You’re here.”

“It took longer than I anticipated,” the woman says breathlessly as I turn around. Long blonde box braids flow down her back as she drops her bags on the floor and strips out of a leather jacket that would look at home beside Theo’s. And she has the cutest baby bump.

Theo meets her at the entrance. “Thanks for doing this.”

She smiles up at him affectionately as she presses a hand to the small of her back. “Any time. You know that. Now grab my bags, because those bastards are too heavy to be carrying in my condition. And introduce me to your girl.”

“Indy, this is Sadie.” He takes her bags and carries them over to one of the tables. “She’s top shelf when it comes to hair and beauty, and her husband is one of my bosses.”

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