Page 83 of The Heartbreak List

“Fuck, you feel so good.” He groans as I take him. Praises me every step of the way. Until he’s seated deep inside me. An arm over my hip, he pushes two fingers back into my pussy. He pulses them in and out while he drags out and pushes back in with his cock, hissing between his teeth. Pressing in deeper. "You were just made to take me, weren’t you?”

Stars dance in my vision as the orgasm comes on far stronger than anything I’ve experienced before. It spills from some place deep inside me. Pounds through my whole body in waves as I spasm around his cock and his fingers.

“Fuck, Indy, sweetheart.” He bands me to his chest with his lips pressed to my ear as he fucks his way to his own climax. “Fuck.”

Neither of us moves for a few minutes while we catch our breath. He eases out of me so tenderly. “Let’s get cleaned up.”

“Okay.”

He scoops me up and carries me into the bathroom. Turning on the shower, he holds me and kisses me while we wait for the water to heat up. “How are you feeling?”

“Good. So good.” The connection between us has been strong since the first night we met, but tonight it’s stronger than ever.

He puts me on my feet under the spray. Hands covered in bodywash, we explore each other in slow motion. The suds rinse away and still we linger. His fingers tease between my legs. My palm wraps around his hard length. Our mouths entwine in between soft groans and needy whimpers.

Tension coils in my core again. His lips find my nipple. His teeth graze it. My body responds like it’s been deprived my whole life. Heat floods me.

“Indy…” His mouth is against my ear as he shuts off the water. There’s quiet desperation in his voice as he slides one digit inside me then swirls it around my clit.

It matches what I feel inside. Everything with him is always more than I bargained for. So much more than I ever wanted. “I need you.”

He grabs one of the towels on the rack and quickly wraps it around me before picking me up and carrying me into the bedroom. Water drips everywhere. The towel barely dries the flesh it covers before he strips me of it.

“Lube?” He crawls over me to kiss me.

I shake my head and smile. “Just you.”

Eyes locked, he hikes my knee up at his hip as he fills me. He takes my face between his hands and stares at me with so much raw emotion. “You okay?”

“Yeah.” I’m falling hard, and even though it can’t last, this connection with Theo feels like the kind of spark you make big wishes on. I smooth my hands up and down his back. Holding him close. Pressing him deeper.

I don’t know which one of us moves first, but the sensation is as intense as the emotion inside me. Kisses linger while our hands wander each other’s body. Slowly they become more determined, desperate in the way they press and cling and pull.

Our bodies are in sync as the orgasm steals through me. It’s sweet and intense and it sets off his climax. I see stars as he pulses inside me. This feeling in my chest expands. I care about him so much. It blows my mind that I found him, now, when it’s all too late.

We stay pressed together, his weight supported by his elbows while he holds me close, his cock slowly losing its hardness before he pulls out.

Eventually he moves to his side and pulls me into him, so that my back is to his chest. “That was…you are so much more than I ever expected.”

Maybe it’s wishful thinking. Perhaps it’s the fact that time is running out that makes it all the more intense. “Do you think if we met in another life that we could have been so much more?”

For a little while we lay there. His arms around me and his breath on my shoulder. Perhaps it’s not a question I should have asked. It brings up big feelings for me. Gray was supposed to be my forever, but we never had a connection like this.

But Theo…he had that big love. The one that breaks you when you lose it. And asking him if he thinks we could have had a love like that isn’t fair. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have asked.”

He scrapes the blue hair from my neck and touches his lips to my pulse point. “When I lost Cooper…I lost my self. I didn’t want to be here anymore. I tried to end it…more than once.”

Tears bite behind my eyes. My hold on his arm tightens. I hate that he’s suffered so much. And I’m only going to add to it.

“Eventually I came to the realization that I could live in this world without her. But I could never live in it the same as I would have with her. You, Indy, brought me back to life in a way I didn’t think was possible. So… if we’d met in a world where I’m not jaded and you’re not dying, I have no doubt you would have been my heart and my home.”

“But that’s not the world we live in.” And it hurts so much to think about our ending.

“We only have now.” He turns me in his arms so that I’m looking into his eyes. “Let’s concentrate on that. Find happiness in each moment we do have. Yeah?”

“Yes.” I kiss him back when he lowers his mouth to mine. It’s all I can really ask for. But I close my eyes anyway and wish there could be more.

Chapter Twenty-Eight

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