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I got back to my apartment later that night and put my hand in ice. I knew my knuckles would swell in the morning, but fuck, it felt so good letting some of the aggression out. It didn't stop me from jerking off to thoughts of Siena, though.

I imagined pressing my lips against hers as desire pulsed through both of us. I ripped her fucking halter top clean off her body in one swift movement and suckled on those perfect tits of hers while I worked her out of her pants. I pictured Siena before me in nothing but her fuck hot heels, and then I slammed my fucking cock in her hot fucking pussy over and over as I held her against my office door. It was a fucking beautiful daydream.

I came harder than I had in weeks at those visions.

I needed to find a different pastime. It was clear I was fucking obsessed with Siena Clark and needed to get a motherfucking grip!

Chapter 18

Siena

After I stormed outof Ryan's office, I went to the locker room, grabbed my purse, and made my way outside. I needed a cigarette, and fast. My heart was hammering in my chest, and I wanted so badly to march back in there and kiss him with everything I had. I wanted to somehow prove to myself that there was nothing between us. When he called me Siena, I was torn. Part of me was thrilled at hearing it come from his lips, while the rest of me was livid. He didn't have a right to call me that anymore, and I should never have asked him to in the first place. It was too personal...too much therealme. ThemeI refused to let anyone in this town know because I was afraid they would use it to break me.

I can't tell you how long I spent outside in the alley, soaking up the cool night air. Most people would have frozen their asses off, especially if they were dressed like I was, but I couldn't care less. If my body was cold, I didn't feel it. All I felt was the thundering of my heart and the nicotine as it worked its way into my system. I was too wound up to go back inside, afraid I would run into Ryan again. I was afraid of what would happen if I did. I was losing the battle with myself to keep fighting. My heart and body were gaining control of my mind and senses, and I knew it was only a matter of time before I gave in to him.

After my fifth or sixth smoke, my pack was empty and I was finally starting to feel the bite of the cold. Reluctantly, I made my way back inside and straight to the locker room. I passed by Ryan's office, relieved that he wasn't there; the door was closed and the room was dark. He had already left, which I was thankful for. Maybe the powers that be were finally giving me a break.

"There you are, girl! You missed your slot so Libby took it for you. Where were you?" Bambi asked, concern lacing her tone.

I wasn't in the mood for conversation, so I kept it brief. "Out back. I just needed some time to think, and I couldn't do that in here."

"Anything you want to talk about?" she asked. One of the things I liked about Bambi was that she was truly a good person. Yes, she was sort of a slut who had a reputation around the club about how good she could suck cock, but she had a heart of gold. I trusted her, and I knew I could talk to her about what was going on.

The problem was that I wasn't ready to yet. I didn't want anyone to know I was falling for Ryan, because then it wouldn't just be the two of us in danger; it would be anyone that knew about it and didn't say anything. I couldn't do that to her...I couldn't do that to anyone.

With a slight shrug of my shoulders and a smile on my face, I turned to her. "Thanks, but it's just some shit I need to sort through on my own."

"Alright, well, let me know if you change your mind. You know I'm always here for you, girlie."

She walked up and wrapped her arms around me, hugging me tightly. I wanted to spill my guts to her right then, but I refrained. If I was going to tell someone, it couldn't happen in Carlo's club where anyone could be watching.

"I know. Thanks, Bambi...for everything."

"No need to thank me. Anyway, I'm heading out to the stage. I'm up next!" With that, she walked out the door and left me to my thoughts.

A minute later, Lib came into the room. "Hey. We didn't know where you were, so I took your slot. I figured you could take mine in twenty minutes if you wanted to. Two of the new dancers are on after Bambi, and then I was supposed to go, but the crowd out there is probably sick of seeing me."

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