Page 143 of Live for Me

He paused for just a moment though. “That’s your problem, sugar. All you do is think. Shut your fucking mouth for a minute. And let me shut off your brain.”

He made good on that offer.

He scrambled every thought I’d ever had while he held me against that tree with my legs wrapped around his head. All the thoughts. Since the beginning of time. Gone.

There wasn’t a single coherent thing happening in my brain beyond hoping that he wouldn’t stop anytime soon. I didn’t even recognize the noise that came from my mouth when that monster shook his fucking head between my legs. Feeling his beard drag across my inner thighs, across my clit, across everything nearly sent me into another realm. And no part of me wanted to return from that world. Ever. A world that required no thinking or planning; a world that didn’t rely on me for its next step; a world where I could just exist; a world carried squarely upon this man’s shoulders.

I was weightless in the world where he ruled. I didn’t have to be at the top of my game every second of every day if he was around. Trying to predict every possible outcome before anything happened wasn’t necessary. There was suddenly no need to worry who was around, who might be watching. Anyone looking to find me would find themselves face to face with him first. My name was safe with him, my identity was safe with him, my body was safe with him. I was safe with him.

I’dneverexperienced that kind of calm. That kind of security was never even so much as within sight.

I took the mask from his head and tossed it to the ground so I could grab his hair. I pulled it from the back until he was looking up at me from between my thighs. In the strangest mix of sensations, I felt like I couldn’t breathe while my lungs had all the oxygen they could ever need. This man was the key to calming the out of control raging anxiety fire that nearly burned me alive while somehow also being the spark that lit every other fire inside me.

Butthank you for all this newfound freedom and powerdidn’t feel quite right for this moment.

“I love you,” came out instead. I still couldn’t see his eyes as clearly as I would’ve liked out here in the dark, but I was certain they were darting back and forth between mine with the way the whites were shifting. He moved his hold around my thighs so that his arms were under my ass and he forced his hands up my back between me and the tree. I squeaked again when he stepped back away from the tree.

For the fucking life of me, I couldn’t imagine how he planned to get me back on the ground in front of him short of power-bombing me straight into the dirt. Instead, he very carefully lowered himself to his knees and waited way more patiently than I would’ve ever imagined while I climbed off his shoulders. The moment that I was standing in front of him again, he slid both arms around my legs and pulled me back into him. He opened my legs and picked me up off the ground another time until I wrapped my legs around his waist that time.

And then he dropped my ass straight into the dirt with every ounce of his body weight on top of me. I wasn’t sure how his hands could feel like they were all over my body at the same time, but it was definitely happening. From the back of my thigh, across my hip, all the way up my side, over the piercings and every tattoo, until one hand stopped just under my jaw to hold my head in place while he kissed me. That hand left my body just long enough to hold himself up off me so he could direct his dick straight into me, and there wasn’t even the slightest hint of patience with his movements that time. Two very powerful rocks of his hips had him as deep as he could get and the groan that came out of this giant man brought a smile to my lips instantly.

That smile was gone just as quickly when he reached for the belt that I forgot he’d wrapped around the back of my neckfor safekeeping. He slipped it out from under me and laid it across my neck instead. He put his hands over it on either side of my neck to apply instant pressure on my throat. He leaned down to put his mouth beside my ear when he started thrusting.

“Where’d that cocky smile go, Syn?”

He knew there would be no fucking words available to answer him in between my own gasps. I sent my fingernails after the bones in his back to hold on for dear life.

His laugh sent shivers down my spine. “You better find some words, sugar. If I ask you a question, I expect an answer.”

Fuck youprobably wasn’t the kind of response he was looking for, but it was the first phrase that came to a brain that couldn’t function beyond searching for that orgasm high again. Either way, I gave up worrying about responding because his thrusts turned punishing and falling right over that ledge was the only thing I wanted on my mind. I dug my fingernails into his skin another time to get ready for it.

Just for him to stop moving entirely.

“Colt, what—” I paused to try to glance around us, as much as I could with the belt still across my neck. I didn’t see anyone or anything that would make him stop.

One hand left the belt to grab me by the jaw.

“Do you want to get off, Syn?”

“Wha—what?”

“Are you going to learn to answer me?” he asked.

“That…THAT is why you stopped?” I gasped out. I moved both hands from his back to his chest to start pushing him in the little tantrum I was about to throw. When he didn’t move or react in any sense, I dug my nails in there, too.

“Are you fucking kidding me with this? Has anyone ever saidnowhen you asked that question? What kind of question is that? Who the fuck?—”

His hand shifted over my mouth to silence me.

“Such a pretty little mess,” he whispered. He leaned down until our noses nearly touched. “You’regoingto answer me when I ask you a question. Understand?”

I was able to open my mouth just enough to bite the hand covering it, and he smiled. He dragged that hand down my chin and across my throat to give me a chance to actually find some words. That just resulted in us glaring at one another for a few seconds longer.

Well, he smirked.

I glared.

He lowered his mouth to my ear another time. “The words you’re looking for, sugar, areyes, sir.”

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