Page 85 of Live for Me

“Don’t use one.”

“That’s pretty fucking clear,” I chuckled. I wrapped an arm around the small of her back and started to push back against her to lower her down beneath me. I could get my jeans off myself. There wasn’t any need to make it worse and scare her by letting her do it. I was quick about getting them off just so I could get right back on top of her to take my time there.

I tried to hold most of my weight off her, becausefuck. She wassosmall now that she was under me. I had several layers of blankets in this truck bed to try to add padding for us to lie here, but I didn’t want to crush her by adding me on top of it. She sighed against my mouth when my hand traveled from her cheek, down the front of her throat, and stopped with my palm covering her breast. I raised up just enough to be able to see her lip tremble when I moved my hand down a little further to run the pad of my thumb back and forth over the post through her nipple. She wiggled beneath me until I lifted myself off of her just long enough for her to squirm out of her jeans. I about choked on the perfectly clean and abundant oxygen available to me at the sight of her entire body bared for me. I watched her squeeze her thighs together and then I noticed her hands left my body to cover her breasts.

“What?” she asked.

I’d fucking stared at her until she was uncomfortable again.

Fuck it all.

I got back up on my knees to take both her hands in mine and I moved them over her head to pin her under me. I pushed my knee in between her thighs to force her to stop trying to squeeze them together.

I laid my forehead down against hers. “I’ve never seen anything quite as perfect as you. You’re fucking flawless. Especially beneath me this way, angel. Don’t ever try to hide. Not from me.”

Memphis squeezed my hands, and for a terrifying second or two, I thought she was about to start crying. Then she whimpered my name and I nearly turned feral anyway. I released her hands so I could kiss down her neck, until my tongue came to life with the slight metallic taste from the post through her nipple. Her fingers gripped my hair in an instant when I sucked the whole thing into my mouth and pulled up on it. Her body jolted at the loud crack of thunder all around us, and I had to convince myself not to laugh again. It took me a few minutes to get over how much I fucking enjoyed those piercings before I dragged my mouth from her sternum all the way to her belly button. I froze when her hands locked into my hair that time.

“Please,” she whispered so shakily that I wouldn’t have been able to move my body if God himself had willed it to happen. “Not that.”

That was definitely a first for me.

I couldn’t recall a single time in my life when any woman had turnedthatdown.

But nothing about her even came close to falling under the umbrella ofnormal, and I wasn’t about to push it. She started to pull my hair to try to drag me back up her body. I had absolutely no problem with her being in control, so I sure as fuck let her pull my hair until she had me where she could kiss me again. I smiled against her mouth when she raised her hips up into me. I forced a hand down between our bodies to grab my dick and run the full length of it across her clit. Her kiss halted instantly, and she sucked in a sharp breath at the friction between her legs. I did it again, and I was rewarded with the tiniest moan from the tiniest mouth. I shifted down a little further to make sure the head of my dick was soaked from her own arousal before I did it a third time, and her back arched until I could feel the posts through her nipples pressed up into me. I had to stop for a second to remind myself to breathe that time, so I wasn’t coming on her stomach before I’d ever even had the chance to be inside her. I shifted my weight again so I wouldn’t crush her while I lined myself up with her, but I stopped when her hands shot straight to my back to dig in with her nails.

“Wait, wait, wait. Please, Utah.”

There was so much panic in her voice. Nothing about it was stable. And it wasn’t the good kind of shaky, where it was overrun with excitement. It was the kind of shaky where she couldn’t keep the fear out of it if her life had depended on it. My heart shattered into more pieces than I’d ever be able to recollect to put it back together again when I saw that her eyes were squeezed shut as tight as she could get them. Her bottom lip quivered even while it was trapped squarely between her teeth.

I wasn’t about to make a single fucking move until she told me to at that point, and she didn’t move either. I was probably bleeding from where it felt like her nails had punctured the skin on my back, but I definitely didn’t feel anything at all in that moment.

A fucking eternity passed before she finally opened her eyes again. And the second that she did, lightning lit up everything around us to let me see all too clearly every ounce of fear that she usually hid so well.

There I was, caught in the green eyes of a hurricane.

“You stopped,” Memphis whispered.

“You saidwait? Several times. That usually means?—”

I hadn’t learned much that was truly worthwhile in my teen years, but when a girl told a boy to stop, he was supposed to fucking stop.

That much stuck with me.

Her entire body was shaking now, and she was doing everything in her power to look anywhere but at my face. Someone somewhere flipped the light switch to turn my brain back on a couple seconds after that.

“Memphis, have you ever?—”

“I’m not a virgin,” she whispered and closed her eyes before she let out a long breath.

“What is it?” I asked. “Are you about to tell me that you actually prefer women? Because I feel like that’s maybe something that you could’ve mentioned before this moment.”

“It’s not my first time,” she repeated, but she swallowed so hard that I could see her throat tighten. “It’s just—it was never with—I didn’t—I’ve never even had a boyfriend, Utah.”

I got the fuck off that girl as quickly as I could move.

“Memphis.”

She sat up and pulled her knees up to her chest to wrap her arms around her legs like she was trying to hide again. “Yeah?”

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