My body seared with need for him. While in the midst of his animal state, still establishing consent. So hot.
“I’m, I’ve, uh, got my period.” I was irrationally embarrassed about a normal bodily function.
Knox froze then blinked once. “Does it make it uncomfortable for you?” he asked practically.
I shook my head. “Not at all. It’s just … messy.”
Knox showed his teeth in an expression that certainly could not have been described as a smile. “You think I’m scared of a little mess? A little blood?”.
His hands slowly, gently went to the waistband of my sweats, keeping his eyes glued to mine, searching for any kind of negative reaction.
I knew this because for the first time, his touch was hesitant, waiting. I could see that he was holding himself back.
And though I was overcome with yearning for him, I was thankful for the slower pace. My body was ready for Knox, but my mind was not quite there. I was still rattled, my edges frayed, my fight-or-flight response still in place, still recovering. Then there was the physical pain I was feeling. Tamped down somewhat by painkillers Knox had given me before he’d left to … take care of the men.
Sex wasn’t the most sensible thing to do right then. There was a laundry list of other, safer, more practical things to do.
But my soul needed that connection, to feel alive. Encased in Knox.
So though I was tense, I let Knox’s hands venture into my sweats.
“What happens now?” I asked.
We had showered, after we were done. He’d carefully washed my body then catalogued every one of my wounds with a precise eye. Nothing needed any extra care beyond time. He’d cleaned my raw wrists with antiseptic then carefully rubbed cream on them, his fingers shaking as he did so. With rage.
I was wearing my own clothes that still smelled of the simple soap I’d washed them with in the cabin. I swore, I scented the moonlight, the pine trees, the wildflowers. I longed for the place I knew was lost to us. If not forever, for a long time.
Because there was a fight ahead of us.
Knox didn’t answer, just continued brushing my hair, strokes precise, tender.
“What happens to Stone now?” I asked him, unable to stew in the uncertainty anymore. “He isn’t going to just give up.”
“No,” Knox agreed. “As long as he lives, he will hunt you.”
Unease burrowed under my skin at his words. The cold certainty in them.
“So what now?” I probed again. I trusted Knox. With my life. But I couldn’t sit with the proverbial wool pulled over my eyes and just wait for him to take care of things while I sat there wondering about what the future would bring.
“He will die,” Knox said as if it was obvious.
I stared at him. The man who loved me with a darkness that engulfed me wholly. That wrapped around me like a second skin.The man who would and had killed anyone who hurt me. Who walked this earth now with the sole purpose of protecting me.
So yes,of course,he was going to kill the head of an international crime organization to keep me safe.
Twenty
Knox
Ididn’t have friends. It wasn’t smart in my business. Beyond that, I just wasn’t capable of forming those kinds of connections. I had begrudging acquaintances who were terrified I’d kill them if they didn’t act accordingly and then targets whom I quickly killed.
No one I trusted with my life, let alone Piper’s.
Except for my brother.
Mymarriedbrother with a baby daughter.
No fucking way would I involve him in this, put them in danger. Driving to Maine had been a stupid fucking mistake, so I had surveillance installed all over his house to make certain I wasn’t inadvertently tracked there.