Page 78 of A Billionaire's Cabin Love

I didn’t answer. He walked across the room and yanked the dark curtains open. My eyes followed his every move.

He stepped to the side of the bed. “Come on, let’s go.”

I clenched my eyes closed. He scooped me up.

“Put me down,” I demanded.

“Nope, if you don’t take a shower, I’ll call Sydney and have her help you.”

He sat me on the shower floor and flipped on the jets. The cold water pounded against my skin. “Ah,” I yelled, as the ice-cold water shocked me back into reality.

Harry sat on the edge of the tub.

“Collin, said you wanted to return to Alaska.”

My stinky T-shirt clung to my skin.

The tears started again. “I moved to L.A. to be with Collin. The second he found out we were having a baby, he left. He tried to pay me off like his father. I never want to see Collin again. He broke my heart. My heart hurts. It won’t stop hurting,” I cried.

“I wanted to believe he wouldn’t hurt me. He made me love him.” My voice rattled in my chest.

“Now I can’t stop loving him.”

“You both are in pretty rough shape. Collin buried himself in his work. His heart is broken, too. Not sure how you two can find your way back to each other.”

I shook my head. “He doesn’t want me. He used me up now he’s back to his regular one-night stands. Harry, just leave me here. I’ll pay for my flight to Alaska. I don’t want anything from Collin.”

“You’re hurt. Is it true you didn’t want to find out if you were pregnant? And he said he wanted to marry you and you told him it was no rush?”

I slipped my fingers through my puffy hair. “Yes.”

“Is it possible you gave him a way out because you thought this was easier?”

My hand flew over my mouth. “I love him with all my heart.” My body shivered.

“Yes. Maybe, I thought if I pushed him away early on it would hurt less rather than later. But it feels like a weight is resting on my lungs. I haven’t been able to breathe since he left.” I swiped at the tears.

“Tell him I will be out of his place tomorrow. I can’t believe I let my fears help destroy us.”

“After you shower, I’ll take you for a drive. Like we’ve done every day for weeks.”

“Harry, you're an exceptional friend. You’d make some beautiful woman happy.”

“Since I’ve returned from active duty, I haven't given a relationship much thought.”

“Well it’s time to think about it.”

“Don’t turn the focus from you to me. When was the last time you ate?”

“I haven’t eaten a meal. I’ve eaten snacks.”

He rubbed his brow. “I can’t let you and that baby starve. I’ll be in the living room. We’ll grab a bite to eat first.”

“Sounds good.”

Harry closed the door as he exited the bathroom.

I peeled off my wet clothes, then adjusted the water temperature. The last time Collin and I showered together came to mind. His soapy fingers ran figure eights over my skin. I was so ticklish. He loved to make me laugh. All of our memories plagued my thoughts over the last few days. I enjoyed watching his face light up when his team scored. Collin loved sports. On Sundays, I watched him and a group of guys play football in the park. His smile was so bright when his eyes met mine. He mouthed I love you from across the field. I mouthed I love you too. He fought tooth and nail for me. But I hadn’t fought for him. Fuck, he really loved me with his entire heart. How could I be so blind? I can’t lose him.

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