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RK

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Ok that’s enough. I didn't want to email anymore while I'd been drinking anyway. I’d say something I can’t take back and anxiety from emerging feelings is the last thing that needed to happen right now. My hands were starting to shake. I watched the wine ripple in the glass, and it was hypnotizing me. I can’t do this anymore.

From: ALEX

Reply to: ROMAN

Subject: :)

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Goodnight.

AK

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Chapter 5

ROMAN

I’m so terrible about letting shit, like this, go. I sat there staring at the phone biting my lip trying to stay in control and not say something I’d regret.

From: ALEX

Replyto: ROMAN

Subject: :)

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Goodnight.

AK

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My mom would’ve said, “That’s a good start, honey.”

I’m sick of this shit. I know she misses me. I know she can’t possibly still think I did that to her. What’s she afraid of? Me? The only thing I’ve ever shown her is love. She’d have to be a masochist to think this was good for either of us. No, I want the last word. I dropped the phone and ran my hands back and forth through my hair, like a crazy person. “Ugh.” I groaned, reached down and picked up the phone, taking a breath before deciding how to respond to her dismissal.

From: ROMAN

Reply to: ALEX

Subject: Y Goodnight?

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Please just talk to me. How can I make you see it wasn’t me?

RK

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From: ALEX

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