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Without warning, Declan kisses me. I try to pull away from him, but he won’t let me. He keeps his mouth on mine and pushes against me. I push against his chest, but it’s like trying to move a brick wall. “Let me in, Vivian,” he murmurs against my lips. “Please, Baby, let me in.” But instead I try to turn away, and Declan cups my chin with his hand, holding me in place.

Declan pushes me back against a wall and bites my lip, making me gasp in surprise. Once I open my mouth a fraction, he slides his tongue inside in a powerful kiss. He shoves my skirt up and reaches into my soaked panties, because even though I am so furious with him, Declan has awakened such a passion within me that his touch sends me deep into arousal. He slides his finger over me, expertly, knowing exactly where to go and what to do to have me coming undone.

I push and try to keep my legs closed. I don’t want him to distract me from what we are talking about, from the importance of this conversation. It’s about so much more than this situation and he knows it. It will set the stage for our relationship, forour future. I have more questions. I need to know how far he is willing to go and what if it happens again.

But I’m afraid I already know the answers.

I continue to try to push away, but it’s futile as Declan’s touch just chips away at my walls. He’s whispering how much he loves me against my lips, and his fingers are bringing me to the edge of the ecstasy I know he can deliver. And suddenly, my body and need for him take over, and I can’t remember the fight. He uses his mouth to hold my head in place and brings his hands to my thighs and pulls them apart, settling his groin against my weeping core, then undoes his jeans and rips the middle out of my panties and brings his hard length against me, sliding himself against my core.

“Tell me you want me, Vivian,” he demands, letting my lips go briefly to speak against them only to reattach himself to me.

I don’t answer, but my traitorous hips do as they move against his cock. Declan reaches between us and rubs the head of his hard shaft over my wet folds.

“I’m all yours, Vivian,” he promises me with his deep voice, its rumbling baritone vibrating through my body. “But you gotta tell me you want me,” he says, sliding and then stopping his head at my entrance before moving away again.

“Declan,” I whimper when he doesn’t slam into me.

“Say you want me,” he demands, slowing the movement of his cock. “I want so bad to be inside you, but not until you say yes.”

“Yes, Declan, please, yes,” I say desperately, because my vagina is a demanding bitch and she is obsessed with Declan’s cock.

He slides the head one more time over my entire core and then he slides into me, slowly. My head rolls back at the relief of having him inside me. Then we are moving, as Declan carries me to the bed, laying me down, never disconnecting us.

I look into Declan’s face as he holds himself over me, and I can see all the emotion he feels for me in his eyes. If I had ever doubted how much he cares about me, it’s all bare for me now as he looks at me and moves slowly within me. He drops soft kisses on my lips and cheeks and eyes. He drags his lips down my neck. I feel the pleasure building in me and wrap my legs around him, angling myself so he hits the spot deep inside me that lights off more and more fireworks.

“I love you, Declan,” I say as my orgasm hits me, sending waves of pleasure shooting warmly from my core all down my legs.

Declan follows after me. “I love you,” he calls out as he fills me with his own climax. He gathers me to him and I close my eyes, feeling completely warm and completely at home. I relax and fall asleep in his arms.

Chapter 51

DECLAN

Ilie with Vivian until her breathing evens out, and I just hold her and look at her for a while. I have to go. I have to meet my brothers. But I can’t tear myself away from her. I have always been aware that having the type of business we have comes with enemies, but this Lexington thing is a whole other story.

I get my phone out and I take a picture of Vivian asleep in my arms.

I slowly extract myself from her, and her whimper at the loss of my heat breaks my heart. I grab a throw blanket from the closet and cover her with it. I heave out a sigh and walk out of the room backward.

I go to her bag and riffle through it, grabbing her cellphone and her old Tracfone. I take a new minute card out of my wallet and leave it next to the Tracfone, along with my phone numberand a message on a note. Smart phones can be tracked, Axel has told me, but the Tracfone can’t.

She is going to hate you for this, a voice down deep tells me. But once I get everything back to normal, once I get everything settled, she will understand. I am doing this to keep her safe. I’d rather she was mad at me and safe than any other scenario. She might not get it now, but she will—eventually. I wish she could accept it all now, but there’s no way she could when she doesn’t even know everything about my world. It’s my fault, I know. I kept some of it shaded from her. I wanted her away from the gray area that is my life. Now I see that wasn’t right, but I can’t fix it now. I have to figure this shit out first.

In the meantime, she’s safe.

Chapter 52

VIVIAN

Iwake up to a noise I’ve never heard before, some sort of bird or animal. I’d been exhausted. I hadn’t realized just how tired I was, but waking to the now bright sun shining in the windows of the cabin tells me I’ve been out for a while.

“Declan?” I call, but I know he isn’t here. I can’t feel him. His presence is like a buzzing in my body, and my body is silent now. A disappointment sweeps over me knowing he left me here, and we never finished our conversation. That he bulldozed past everything I asked of him and distracted me with his incredible body.

I get up and make my way to the small kitchen area and see a note, along with my old Tracfone. I haven’t seen that thing in months. A cold, sinking feeling flows over me, making me shiver. I grab the note, starting to shake as I read it.

Viv-

I took your phone because it’s trackable. I got you minutes for the old one, so call if you need anything.

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