Page 30 of Thrust into the Light

Instructor Fry looks at me. It is very strange. He is so much bigger than me, but with him sitting on his knees here, he is just a bit smaller than me. I smile at him; I like this.

“Has Connor told you about what happened during class?” he asks me.

“Nooo. I know pain, then blood, and quishing feeling, then in bed!” I’m getting much better at my words, now if only I could say them right, I know how they are supposed to sound in my head, but I just can’t get my mouth to say them right sometimes.

“Alright, well that is pretty close to what happened, you were taken to Healer Daniel, and he healed you, and fix your lungs. While you were being healed, we discovered that you are a shifter of some type. Tomorrow you’ll go to the shifter class. Instructor Payne will be your teacher there. Healer Daniel toldhim about all the problems you have, and he won’t try to make you do things your body isn’t ready for. You also are going to see Healer Daniel more often, a few times a week, once it gets dark.”

I nod at him. I keep my eyes on his eyes. They are still kind of swirly with the dark in them. It does feel like it’s easier to breathe. I take a big breath in and a funny sound escapes me.

“What’s wrong?” Connor and Instructor Fry ask me at the same time.

Focusing hard on how the words are supposed to sound, I say, “Not wrong, can breathe with no pain.” I fill my body up with as much air as I can and laugh as it all escapes out of me. I haven’t felt that full of air ever. I do it again just to feel it. I smile at both of them. Focusing again, I say, “I can feel it, I can feel the air in me.” I take another deep breath and laugh, and all the air escapes out of me again with my laugh.

Connor smiles at me and Instructor Fry has a funny look on his face. I want him to smile too, so I reach over and push his face up to make it look like he is smiling! He laughs at me and smiles, too. I have more I want to ask, so I try to focus on the words and how they are supposed to sound.

“If I get healed, and scars gone, can I feel you?” Both of them are now no longer smiling. I look at both of them, waiting for one of them to answer me.

“We hope so, sweet girl. I hope that one day when I have my hand in yours, you can feel it. When I kiss your head good night, you can feel my lips on your forehead. I hope one day you can feel the hugs I give you, and not just the pressure from them. One day, I hope you can feel everything.”

“I feel warmth. Not cold like me.”

Instructor Fry gives my hand a big hand hug. “I am glad you can feel the warmth of us that gives me some ideas that maybe not all of your nerve endings are fried, just maybe the pain receptors are damaged. Are you okay if I am at your healings?”

“Okay, you soulmate.” I am starting to get really sleepy again. Connor notices, he always notices when I’m sleepy.

“Alright sweet girl, why don’t you go get some more rest? I willwake you up a little earlier in the morning for classes than today, so you need to get as much rest as you can.” I nod at them both and stand up. Instructor Fry gives my hand one last hug and then lets it go. I go to get under my blankets, but the silly shirt is itchy. I take it off and lie down. Soon I am dreaming of Connor and Instructor Fry, and the five other eyes watching us.

I wake up fast, and look around. There are no chains here, and HE isn’t here. My heart feels like it’s trying to escape me. I need to make sure Connor and Instructor Fry are here. I don’t know what is a dream and what isn’t a dream. I’m so confused. I open my door, and it’s getting light outside. I hear someone in the kitchen, so I try to walk quietly over that way. I pass the big table and open the kitchen door. Instructor Fry is standing in the kitchen wearing some strange short pants, and nothing else. His muscles have muscles. Even his stomach has muscles. I get the strange feeling in my stomach again and tell it in my head no sex! Instructor Fry looks up from what he is doing and looks at me.

“Uh shit, sorry if I woke you up, Connor and I were talking last night and he said he can’t really cook and has been ordering you food, I’m not the greatest at it, but I can do bacon and pancakes okay. If I would have known you were up, I would have put more clothes on.”

I can’t stop looking at all his muscles. My stomach makes that weird rumbly feeling again, and I look down at it. When I put my hand on it, I hear a voice in my head that sounds like “MINE.” But it sounds so far away. In my head I try to think to it like I do Connor. “Hello?” No sound comes back and my rumbly stomach stops. I look up at Instructor Fry and he is just looking at me. His eyes keep looking up and down at me, and I look down again and look at myself. I took off that shirt and didn’t put anything else on. He is standing here without a shirt on too, so I don’t see what the problem is.

“Farlen, I only have so much restraint and you wouldn’t be able to handle what it is I want to do to you, so I am going to need you to put some clothes on before I have you for breakfast.”

I don’t understand why Connor and Instructor Fry act that way when I don’t have clothes on. I remember Connor saying it was killing him and hurry back to my room. I need a bath first, then clothes. I don’t want to kill them. I need to make sure I have clothes on before I leave my room, just like I need to make sure my pants are on the right way. I get in my bath and get clean. When I walk back into my room wrapped up in my towel, Connor is there.

“No, I not kill you today. Go, I get dressed.”

He laughs and leaves the room. As I am getting dressed, I hear knocking from far away. It doesn’t sound like it is on my door, but it sounds like it is close. I hear the outside door open and Connor talking to someone. I hurry and get dressed. All my pants and short pants are gone. Connor told me the dirty clothes will be washed and returned to me after I wear them. So I put on the strange short pants, but they don’t have anything in between them.

I walk out, looking for Connor. He’s supposed to help me put on my deodorant, so I don’t hurt myself. I don’t hear him, but I hear talking outside. It sounds like Connor and another male. I hear Instructor Fry still in the kitchen, so I go that way. Maybe he will help me. I open the kitchen door and he has clothes on, too. I liked looking at his muscles, even though it made my stomach feel funny again. He smiles when he sees me and looks at me up and down again. He smiles at me and walks towards me.

“Connor is outside talking to Instructor Payne right now, not sure what they are talking about but I have a feeling we will find out soon, now why don’t you go sit your cute little ass down and I will bring you some food?”

I take a big breath. It still feels strange to do it and focus on my words. “I can’t yet. Connor helps with deodorant, so I don’t hurt myself.”

He looks at me funny. “Show me what you mean.”

I lift my arm up and do what Connor told me to do. When I press it into my skin, it is taken from my hands really fast.

“Alright, I see why you need help. You really can’t feel howhard you are pressing it into your skin?” I shake my head at him. “Alright, here, let me help you, lift your arms up like you do for Connor.” As he gets closer to me and puts it on me, my stomach has that funny feeling again. He takes a big breath in through his nose and makes a funny noise. He hands me my deodorant.

“Alright, go put that up and go sit down. I’ll get you some food. Connor said you haven’t tried pancakes yet, so I have a lot of different toppings for them, but I have a feeling you’re going to love one of them.”

I smile at him, and my body does that strange thing where it moves all on its own, and I give him a big hug. He gives me a hug back. He isn’t as soft as Connor is. His body is harder. And there is something hard poking me in the stomach. I step back to try to see what was poking me, but Instructor Fry turns around really fast.

“Hurry up or you’ll be late for class today.”

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