Page 44 of Thrust into the Light

“Shhhh,” they all say.

I pull out my phone and look its fucking one am. Payne has me in three fucking physical classes to try to work out some of my aggression. “I have a class at eight. Where’s my room?”

“Just a few more minutes, Vashu, and we should all go to sleep. Please, since we are all going to be with each other for a while, drop the Fry shit, call me Zachariah. If Farlen asks for Rhi, that would be me, no you fuckers can’t call me that. My name is hard for her to say. Remember how I told you she can’t feel any of our touches? There is a small spot on her back where some of her scars have healed on their own, and she can feel our touches there. When she opens up to you guys and your touches, we will show you where it is.”

He stands up and stretches. “Come on, the room at the end is Farlens. Connors’ room is on the left, mine is on the right. There are two rooms off the sitting room, and behind the kitchen there are stairs that go down to the gym. Down there, there are four more rooms. Thankfully, we won’t need all of them. Pickwhatever empty one you want.”

He walks into the room he said was his and shuts the door. Xander is still staring at her door and whimpering. I wish I could punch him. That noise is so damn annoying. I walk to one room off the sitting room. It’s nicer than my dorm room, and a hell of a lot nicer than my cave. Though I don’t know where I’m going to put all my shit.

33

Farlen

That was a good sleep. Connor, Rhi, Xander, and Vashu were there. The three other eyes were there, too. I can’t wait until I get to see their faces, too. We were all sitting around a gigantic table, one that is like the one we have now, but different. We just sit there and eat and laugh. It was nice. I hope one day we can all do that. There is a bit of light coming through the curtains, so I need to get up and take my bath.

I stand up and have to pee badly. It’s happened a lot since yesterday. Usually I only pee two times a day. I don’t like this feeling. What happened to me? I hurry to the restroom because I really need to go. I wash my hands and then get my bath ready. I really like the bath. One day I am going to press the button Connor said will make jets come on. I don’t know what a jet is, so I haven’t tried it yet. I go to the closet and get dressed for the day, checking two times that I have my not short pants on right. These are really short. They are blue and black, and I like the way they look. I put on my bra, even though all I want to do is throw it on the ground and never see one again. I find a blue shirt that has words on it. I don’t understand two of the words on it, but I do know it says, I’m sorry, I wasn’t (a word I don’t know) I was (another word I don’t know) by your face. The blue looks like the blue on my not short pants. I put it on and go to the big table.

The big table is broken. What happened to it? Where will we all sit and eat? When the other three eyes become faces, where will we laugh at? I sit down on the ground and cry. The dreamI had can’t happen now. It made me so happy. I hear someone walking up behind me and turn towards them. It’s Xander.

“Why are you crying at four thirty in the morning?” I don’t know what that means. And I don’t know how to tell him. I need Connor. I just cry some more.

“Hey, hey, Connor said if you touch your head like that, you need to tell him something in your head. Don’t cry. Let me go get him.” I can’t stop crying. I wanted all the eyes to be faces, and all of us to sit around and to laugh and eat together.

Xander knocks on a door and Rhi comes over and picks me up.

“Why are you crying, gorgeous?” I touch my head. I can’t stop crying to say it.

Rhi hugs me close. “Knocked on the wrong door, but I appreciate being woken up for this. Connors is the other door.”

“She’s crying and keeps touching her head like you said she would if she needed to say something, but can’t figure out how to say it. Zachariah has her right now, but she needs you.” Xander says quietly. Rhi is still just holding me, making shushing noises like the lady did in the hospital to the small girl.

Connors' face comes into view. He doesn’t have his glasses on and he keeps rubbing his eyes.

“Alright, I’m here, sweet girl. What’s wrong?”

The big table is broken. Where will we all eat? Where will the other three eyes sit when they have faces? How can we all sit and laugh?

“Fuck, I knew we forgot to do something last night,” Connor says. He picks me up from Rhi, and Rhi makes a funny noise. Connor doesn’t let me look at him, though. He carries me over to the couch, sits down, and has me sit on him like a chair. He gives me a big hug.

“Yes, the big table is broken Farlen, but it’s okay, we can get a new one today while you are in class, there will be a new big table for us all to sit at and eat and laugh together sweet girl.” He squeezes me again. “Now, why are you up so early? The sun is just barely coming up. Your classes don’t start for another three and a half hours.”

“I don’t know. My body just wanted to be awake.” It takes me awhile to say it right, and it took me a few tries to get awake right, but I did it. Connor stops squeezing me and lets me stand up. He laughs as he looks at my shirt.

“Farlen, do you know what your shirt says today?”

“Some, not all.”

“Alright, your shirt says, I’m sorry I wasn’t listening. I was horrified by your face.”

Rhi comes over behind me and gives me a big hug from behind.

“I’ve got her guys. Why don’t you try to get some more sleep? I can never go back to sleep once I’ve been woken up.” Connor nods his head, stands up and stretches high up. He walks back to his room and shuts the door.

Xander comes over to me and reaches his hand out to me, but then stops and puts it back by his side. “I’ll see you in a few hours, snowflake.”

Why did he call me snowflake and not scary lady? Rhi gives me more squeezes.

“So, you were dreaming of us?”

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