Page 94 of If You Love Me

For a moment, I just stared at him, contemplating. I wanted him. God, did I want him. I just needed my mind and body to be on one accord.

“I… I want to try,” I said faintly.

“What?”

“I want to try being with you.” I reached between us and placed my hand on his dick. “I haven’t felt you in so long.”

“I know, baby. But we don’t have to do this if you aren’t fully ready.”

I ignored his statement and started fumbling with his belt buckle.

“Ev…”

“I can do it,” I said, continuing to fumble.

“Ev!” he said, a little firmer as he grabbed my hand. “I want you so fucking bad, Evenie, but I can wait.”

Tears stung my eyes as I looked up at him.

“I don’t want to wait, Tyrion. That man controlled my life for ten years. I’m tired of my mind still being a victim. I need to take back control.”

He stared at me for a moment before pulling away from me. My head dropped. Then I saw him removing his clothes. Layer by layer, his naked form took place until he was standing there completely nude. His body was beautiful. A firm chest, abs, and that long, thick dick stared back at me.

“Undress,” he said lowly.

I paused for a moment and reached behind me to undo my bra and pull it off. I slid my panties off and tossed them to the side. I watched as he climbed on the bed and lay on his back with his head on the pillow. My eyes fell to the firm grip he held on his dick as he stroked it to full length. My nipples hardened as it grew before my eyes.

“Come here,” he said, beckoning me to him.

I climbed over to him, and he pulled my legs to straddle him. Cupping my face, he pulled me down to him and kissed me with so much passion that I couldn’t help but to moan. Releasing me, he rested his head against the pillow with his hands behind it.

“Take it,” he said. “You have the control. I’m yours to do with as you please.”

I sat there for a moment. His dick was standing at attention, resting against my backside. I took a deep breath and reached behind me to stroke him. He stared up at me with those captivating eyes that always made me melt. His top teeth sank into his bottom lip as he placed his hands on my thighs. Slowly, I ground my pussy against his abs. The first jolt of pleasure caused me to gasp.

His hands traveled up my sides and under my breasts, his eyes never leaving mine. I shuddered as his thumbs grazed my nipples. He circled them before pulling me into him and latching on to the left one. Again, I gasped. My hand went to the back of his head, caressing it as he suckled each of the hardened buds like a baby feeding from its mother.

I moaned his name. “Tyrion…”

I could feel the wet spot growing beneath me.

“I love you, Ev,” he whispered.

“I love you too.”

I could barely take it anymore. Lifting my hips, I positioned him at my entrance. My body froze the moment the head of his dick made contact. I sat there, awkwardly positioned, with myeyes closed, willing myself not to fall back into that negative headspace.

“I’m right here with you, love,” Tyrion said. “Take your time.”

You are not a victim anymore, Evenie. This man is your husband, and he loves you. He would never hurt you the way you’ve been hurt. There is nothing ugly about intimacy with him. If you let it, this can be the most beautiful experience.

My inner selfwas speaking to me, and I had to listen. Once upon a time, I loved sex with Tyrion. Making love to him produced our biggest blessing. There had never been anything ugly about it.

Taking a deep breath, I slowly eased down onto his length. It took a little more effort because of how long it had been, but once he was fully nestled into my wetness, he was the same perfect fit. I opened my eyes to find him staring at me with so much love in his eyes. In that moment, I just wanted to please him… submit to him… surrender to him.

Leaning in, I kissed him slow and sensually as my hips rose and fell. He slapped my ass, causing a slight whimper to escape my lips.

“That’s it, love,” he whispered, running his fingers through my curls. “Take what you need.”

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