Page 45 of Trust In Me

Fuck! My heart literally aches as he says the perfect words to me.

I take a deep breath to settle my nerves, and I follow his advice. I listen to exactly what my body wants from him and I push aside all of the embarrassment I feel and just talk to Kellan. I realise I have nothing to be embarrassed by. I trust him, and I know he’s only getting me to do this to help me become more in tune with my body and my desires. And I can’t deny that the whole dirty talking part is sexy as fuck.

Leaning in so that I can whisper in his ear, I tell him exactly what I know he wants to hear. “I want you to let me open my legs for starters. Then I want to feel the tip of your cock swiping through my slit, making sure my pussy is dripping wet, which we both know it will be. It’s constantly dripping when you are around. Then I want you to slowly push your big, hard cock deep into my pussy. But don’t forget to pause for a bit when you are deep inside my tight, hot cunt. I will need some time to adjust as your dick stretches me more than ever before. Then I know you will start by moving slowly, and that’s okay at first. Until you get into a beautiful rhythm, but once we are both starting to go a bit insane, then I want you to fuck me exactly how you like to do it. Pull my hair, spank my ass, call me a dirty whore. Whatever turns you on. I want to experience all of you, Kellan. I want you to listen to your body the whole time, and don’t ever hold fucking back. We were made to fit each other, so I know I can handle all of you.”

Kellan looks at my eyes wide with awe, his mouth flopping open and then closed as he struggles to find the right words. I can feel his cock becoming harder between my legs, and I know it’s taking every ounce of strength that Kellan has not to move right now. He seems to take a few minutes to fully take in everything I just said, and once he has it’s like someone flips a switch and he springs into action.

Pushing my legs apart, he follows my instructions to the letter by swiping the swollen head of his cock through my slit, making sure to press hard against my throbbing clit. I couldn’t be more desperate and ready for him if I tried. I feel him spreading my moisture around my pussy lips, before pulling away with a groan.

“Fuck, I wasn’t even thinking just now. Your dirty words have me all confused. I forgot about a condom,” Kellan whispers, looking a little sheepish like he’s expecting me to get mad at him. I’m not surprised he’s so keen on condoms given Hallie wasn’t exactly planned.

“We can wear a condom if you like, but I have the implant in my arm. I got tested recently and I was all clean. But it’s entirely up to you, Kel. I understand if you would prefer to use one,” I explain, giving him the choice. I want to tell him that I’ve never had sex without a condom before.

My dad couldn’t put me onto any kind of birth control until I started having periods at around age thirteen, but he always insisted on everyone using condoms when they were with me. Even he wore one. At the time I didn’t really even think about it too much because I barely understood the risks. As I got older, not only was I grateful that I couldn’t get pregnant by these monsters, but I was also protected from whatever diseases they were carrying. It also means I’m able to have sex without a condom for the first time with someone I choose. I don’t want to put that kind of pressure onto Kellan, particularly given his history with Shayla. So, I keep all this hidden and let him make his own choice.

“Mia, if I have a choice, I want to feel all of you. I want to bury my bare cock deep into your pussy, feeling your heat and how wet you are just for me. But, it’s up to you? I will wear a condom if you tell me to.”

Shanking my head, I tell him that I want to feel him, and that’s all Kellan needs to hear. He gathers his cock into his hand, grasping it just enough to guide it in the right direction, and he uses his other hand to spread my legs open wider, opening my pussy up to him. With a deep groan Kellan slowly pushes the head of his cock into my waiting hole.

“Fuck!” I shout in pleasure, my back arching off the bed as my fingers grip tightly into the skin of his back. My nails scrape down his skin as I try to pull Kellan closer while he moves his hips.

He presses his cock into my tight wet pussy, moving just as impossibly slow as I predicted. As much as I hate to admit it, I need him to go slow because he feels so fucking big. If I thought he felt huge in my mouth, it's nothing compared to this. The sensation of feeling wonderfully full and stretched is amazing, but with each inch he pushes inside of me, I worry I'm not going to be able to take any more.

“So big,” I moan as Kellan grunts and pushes a little more.

“Fuck, Flower. You are so fucking tight. Your cunt fits so tightly around my cock, hugging me like a glove that was made just for me.” His voice is low and gravelly, and as his breath hits my ear, I can’t help the spasm that ripples down my spine. Like little electric shocks are travelling through my body, with a direct link to my pussy. I wonder if Kellan can feel my pussy pulsating around his cock.

With a final push, followed by the most delicious grunt, he finally pushes himself fully inside me. He pauses for just a second, and I gasp, trying to gain control of my breathing as Kellan does the same. He waits for me to become adjusted to having him so deep. At first it stings and the feeling of fullness is a little overwhelming at first, which is why I try to get control of my breathing. My heart is racing, and I can feel beads of sweat forming across my body.

It doesn’t take long for the sore, full feeling to turn into a pleasurable sensation, as my pussy starts to pulse with need. I tilt my pelvis slightly, moving my pussy off his cock just slightly before rocking the other way. Kellan takes the hint and starts to move. His cock pulls out agonisingly slowly, the head just sitting at my pussy entrance. Kellan's hands grip my hips, preventing me from moving as I desperately try to seek more of him.

When I least expect it Kellan pushes back in all the way to the hilt, and I scream loudly before remembering where we are. I don’t exactly want Liam and Bree to hear us, or worse would be Hallie. Taking my hand, I cover my mouth as Kellan chuckles. “Don’t worry, Flower. They are on the other side of the house, you won’t wake them. Besides, I happen to know that all these rooms are soundproof. So you can scream as much as you want. In fact, I encourage it.” As soon as the words are out of his mouth, he pulls my hand away from my mouth, pinning it above my head. He then begins to really fuck me. Thrusting his cock in and out of my pussy with wild abandon.

At first his thrusts are deep, fast, but coordinated, and so it’s not hard to miss when he begins to lose control. His thrusts become more frantic, and I can feel why. My pussy is beginning to tighten, pulsating with need as I get ever closer to that orgasm we are both chasing. I’m so close, and given the way Kellan his fucking me, I would say he is too.

I’m concentrating so much on how fucking amazing it feels to have him deep inside my pussy, and how he is making me feel things I didn’t think I could physically feel, I miss the moment where he lets go of my hand and uses his hand to snake between our bodies. Before I even realise what he’s doing, he presses the pad of his fingers against my swollen, aching clit.

“Fuck,” I scream as he presses hard, his fingers rubbing against the tight bundle of nerves.

“I want you to come, Flower. Fall apart on my cock. Put your trust in me, I will catch you. Now come!” His dirty demand and reassurance is the only instruction I need. It’s like his words hold the key and I fall apart in his arms. My muscles that were clenched tightly now begin to spasm, my moans turn into cries of pleasure, and my pussy grips hold of his cock tightly.

“I’m coming,” I shout, although it’s not really necessary to tell him this, because I’m sure he can feel it.

Kellan takes his fingers off my overly sensitive clit, and he stops moving, giving me the time I need to ride out my orgasm. With panting breaths, I desperately try to lower my heart rate. Just as I’m finally starting to come down from the most amazing experience of my life, Kellan starts to move again. He moves with slow, deep thrusts to start with, before he soon starts to increase his speed. It’s not long until he is on the edge just like I was, and I’m shocked to find my body is beginning to show signs of another orgasm. This time I want to fall with him.

“Come for me, Kellan. I want to feel you coming deep inside my tight, wet cunt.” I use the dirty language I know he loves so much, and I turn the words he used for me onto him.

It works. As Kellan thrusts deep inside of me, his loud groan of pleasure fills the room and I can feel his cock begin to pulse as he empties himself deep inside. The feel of him spasming deep in my pussy is all it takes to trigger my own orgasm, and although it was considerably smaller compared to the other one just a second ago, my muscles still coil and spasm, and my pussy grips Kellan’s cock.

In the midst of our orgasms, Kellan presses his lips against mine and we cling to each other as we ride them out. Knowing we came at the same time, it feels so incredibly amazing, and I’m reluctant to pull away from him. Sadly, my need to catch my breath overtakes the need I feel to keep connected to Kellan, and we both part, gasping and panting as we desperately try to catch our breaths.

Kellan flops down onto his side, and as his cock slides out of my pussy, I hate how empty I feel. I never knew it was possible to physically crave a cock, but that is exactly what I feel right now. Bringing his hand up to my face, he gently sweeps my sweaty hair out of my eyes, tucking the stray strands behind my ears as he looks at me with an expression I can only describe as awe. He’s looking at me like he can’t quite believe what just happened, and I can appreciate that feeling. I don’t even know how to explain it, but I feel so much closer to Kellan now. There’s no doubt in my mind that I’m crazy in love with him, and I think given the way Kellan is looking at me, he might feel the same. Thankfully he doesn’t say anything, we just sit there in companionable silence, staring at each other with love in our eyes.

As our eyes begin to droop, Kellan pulls me farther into his arms so I’m encased by him, my cheek resting on his chest. I can hear his heart beating against my cheek, and I have no doubt in my mind that it’s beating for me, the way my heart beats for him. As we both begin to fall asleep, I imprint this entire moment, this whole night, into my memories. I know I will need to hold on to this, to feel this love, because I won’t ever get the chance again. Tonight is my first and last night in Kellan's arms. No matter how much he might hate me come tomorrow, I hope he will always know that my heart beats only for him.

Waking up without having Hallie next to me is still one of the most bizarre experiences, and I don’t think it’s one I will ever get used to. Maybe that’s why I’m so reluctant to let Hallie sleep in her own room. Just for a fraction of a second, when I wake up without her, panic starts to set in. My heart races and I sit up so quickly, eyes darting around the room while I look for her. Every possible worst-case scenario flicks through my brain, but they all involve me losing the best thing to have ever happened to me. That overwhelming fear that one day I may no longer be Hallie’s dad, and that thought scares the shit out of me.

This morning, even though I have that moment of panic yet again while I try to look around the room for my daughter, my mind is calmed almost instantly when I feel the beautiful girl curled up beside me. Her head is resting on my chest, brunette locks fanned out covering my tattoos, and her leg is tossed over my leg as she grips my side.

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