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I remember that day. How strong she was. How proud I was to stand beside her while she looked her father in the eye andtold him no. That she chose me. Seeing that one crossed off makes me smile.

Put horse shit in Abbey’s pillow

Teach Two-tone how to count

Swim in the Ocean

Learn how to rope

Get a tattoo

Climb the Eiffel Tower

Go skinny-dipping

See the Statue of Liberty

Visit the Grand Canyon

More than a few have been crossed off since the last time I read through her list and most of them were crossed off without me.

Leaving you doesn’t mean she stopped living.

Learn to Surf

Order room service

Kiss Brock Morris

Six years later and that one still makes me want to put my head through a fucking wall. Instead of closing the notebook like I should, I flip through its pages until I find what I’m looking for.

Kiss him

Touch his tattoos

Let him draw me

Technically, Kait never let me draw her. I just did it without her permission because that’s what obsessed, crazy, out of control psychos do when they can’t get the object of their obsession out of their head.

They ignore boundaries and obsess even harder.

I can hear her in the other room. She’ll be back any second and probably catch me going through her private things but I don’t care. Because I’m an obsessed, crazy,boundary ignoring, out of control psycho. Swiping a rough hand over my face, I scan the rest of her list.

Have an orgasm before I die

Ask him to fuck me

Go shopping with a friend

Get married

Get Went a puppy

Graduate nursing school

Tell Went I love him even if he doesn’t love me back

Tell Went I’m sorry for leaving without saying goodbye

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