Page 25 of Beneath Cherry Blossom Memories

“Is that what you want?” he asks, laughing in disbelief. “You want words? You? Elijah fucking Hawthorne wants to talk?”

If that’s what it takes. If that’s what makes him fight. But he forgets. I know him too well. “Talk, fuck, I don’t care as long as you dosomething.”

“Get out. Get thefuckout of here.” He backs up.

I follow him. My tongue is like a whip, as I say it like it is. “You don’t want me to leave. You want me to shove you back up against that wall,” I push his chest until he has no choice but to do just that, “you want me to kiss you until everything else disappears, and you want me to take it all back.” I grab the back of his head, palm his waist, and push myself into him. “You still want forever. Don’t even bother denying it.”

I roll my hips, and he grunts, holding onto his denial. I kiss his chin and drag my thumb over his pulse point. “Scream at me. Hit me,” I whisper, a million butterflies zipping in my stomach. I smell his breath and drag my nose over his stubble. “Give me something, baby. Give mesomething.”

“No,” he says but grabs my hips hard. “Go back to Leon.”

“I don’t want to.” I press my lips to his cheek. My eyes flutter shut in something akin to bliss. It feels so good to be close to him. “He was my way back.”

“Leave.” His voice drops while he feels my skin. “Please leave.” God, he’s shaking.

Cupping both sides of his face, using my pelvis to keep him pinned, I kiss him. He whimpers, so I do it again and again. “Feels good,” I mumble. “Miss you.” Fuck, I’m high off this. His dick is growing against mine the longer my mouth is on him, and he keeps making those sweet little sounds. “Baby,” I breathe before pushing my tongue between his soft lips.

Phoenix snaps, just like I knew he would. He sucks my tongue, wraps his long arms around my waist and lifts me. My legs latch onto him with speed when he flips us. “I can't do this,” he says through a throaty moan grinding his cock against me.

I kiss him harder, swallowing whatever dumb words he’s going to say. I shove my hand in his hair, yanking his head back, and suck the sexy bump in his throat. “I can’t do this,” he repeats, holding me tight.

“Stop talking,” I growl and fuck his mouth with my tongue.

He bangs me against the wall like he’s trying to hurt me, but all it does is turn me on more. Ripping his lips away with speed, he thrusts his hips up one more time, my head thumping against the drywall. “I’mnotdoing this.” Then he drops me.

Barely landing on my feet in time, I panic while he paces, holding his mouth. “Thisisus, Phoenix. Right here. Sex. Physical touch.”

“I want more!” he yells, knowing someone must have heard it. “I’ve always wanted more, and you aren’t the person to give it to me. You never will be. Go back to Leon.”

And he storms out of the room, door banging with his exit.

Phoenix

Uninvited

“Where are you going? That’smycar, you know?” I yell at Eli as he storms out of my parents’ side gate and down the driveway.

“Stop!” he screams at me, spinning around. “Back off, Phoenix.”

He keeps going, and I follow him because I won’t stop. I found his fucking stash in his pocket. “Just Adderall” my ass. My legs pump harder as I go down to my car just as he gets in the driver’s side. I grab the door, he tugs on it almost smashing my fingers.

“Eli!” I slap the window.

His fingers fumble with my keys, so I hop in the backseat. The engine starts and he peels away while I crawl over the center console. “How long?” I demand, cursing my body for being so fucking tall and awkward. “How long!” I scream in his ear, and he jerks the wheel, sending me falling into the dash.

“Does it matter?”

I don’t know what’s gotten into him or who he’s running away from. “Yes. Yes, it does. How long have you been using?”

“It’s Adderall, you dumb fuck,” he growls, blowing through a red light.

I sit in the seat, looking behind us to see if cops are anywhere. “Since when do you have ADHD? In all our time together, you’ve never mentioned having any prescriptions. And the pills? What the fuck are those?”

He seethes, eyes burning with unshed tears.

“Answer me!”

I sit outside by the bus, puffing on my vape and trying to come to terms with what I just did. I let him do it again. I let him use his body against me, lure me in with his pretty eyes and sensual lips.

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