Page 22 of Pumped

“We’ve spoken to your parents about going to their place for a long weekend sometime,” she continues. “It’ll be good for us to all get together.”

I nod. “That sounds nice.”

Dad comes back from loading up the car and we all say our final goodbyes. Then Everest, Ivy, and I stand in the doorway as both sets of grandparents drive off. I have a feeling all three of us want to run down the stoop and stop them.

When the cars finally disappear around the corner, we step back and I close the front door.

The house suddenly feels so big and empty. Time stretches out in front of us, vacant and needing to be filled. The three of us stare at each other, none of us quite certain what we’re supposed to do now.

“Hey,” Everest says, after several long moments of silence. He gives Ivy a tickle. “How about a movie night with popcorn and ice cream?”

I frown. “Tonight is a school night. Staying up watching movies and eating junk food isn’t a good idea. She should have a proper dinner and get an early night. It’ll be her first day back at school tomorrow.”

Ivy shrinks, clinging even more tightly to Everest. “I don’t wanna go to school,” she whines.

Shit. I didn’t mean to sound so strict. Softening my voice, I try again. “Ivy, sweetie, you’ve already missed a whole week of school. You need to catch up or you’ll fall too far behind. You wouldn’t want that, would you?”

She whines even louder and I brace myself. The sound is a precursor to the crying temper tantrums she’s been having allweek. Her face gets all scrunched up and she throws her limbs around. It doesn’t stop until she’s tired herself out.

It hurts my heart to see her like this, overwhelmed with emotions but without the skills she needs to regulate them. I can’t imagine how frustrating it is, how helpless she must feel. A part of me wants to coddle her and tell her she doesn’t have to do anything she doesn’t want to.

But according to the books I’ve been reading, that’s not going to serve Ivy in the long term. I can’t just be a friend who does whatever she wants. I need to establish myself as a parental figure and putting it off isn’t going to do anyone any good.

“Ivy,” I say, trying to find that precarious balance of gentle but firm. My stomach churns uncomfortably as I speak. “Crying isn’t going to get you out of school tomorrow.”

“But I don’t wanna!” She turns away from me and buries her face into Everest’s neck.

He glowers at me while rubbing circles on her back. “It’s okay, Ivy-bear. It’s okay. You don’t have to go to school tomorrow if you don’t want to.”

I bite back a curse.What the fuck?I mouth silently at him, shaking my head and throwing my hands into the air. Did he seriously just undermine me, not five minutes into this doomed co-parenting arrangement? We’re supposed to be a united front. We’re supposed to set boundaries for Ivy and then keep them. She needs to learn that there are rules and there are consequences if she breaks them.

Instead, Everest has the audacity to smirk at me and give me the middle finger—the irresponsible bastard. I’m still sputtering, trying to process just how juvenile he is, when he carries Ivy off, cooing at her the whole time.

They go upstairs and I hear Everest suggest they play with her dolls, leaving me standing in the foyer, completely fuckinggobsmacked. In one fell swoop, Everest has just made me the bad cop. What the hell?

A part of me wants to march up those stairs and give him a piece of my fucking mind. Ivy is going to school tomorrow and that’s the end of the discussion. He doesn’t get to have an opinion, especially not if he’s going to act like a six-year-old himself.

But I stop myself. What good will it do to confront Everest like that? To get into an argument that will undoubtedly turn into a shouting match. And right in front of Ivy. What kind of example would that set for her? Definitely not a good one.

No, I’ll have to find some other time to sit Everest down and impart to him exactly how this parenting thing works. If he can’t make responsible decisions, then he doesn’t get to make any decisions at all.

I stalk to the kitchen and wrench open the refrigerator door. Taking a calming breath, I let the cold air wash over me and cool my bubbling anger.

I can’t let him get to me. I can’t let him drag me down to his level. Ivy needs parents, not an overgrown man-child to be her best friend. And if Everest isn’t capable of that, then I’ll need to be the parent for both of us.

I scan the inside of the fridge, still filled with takeout containers and casserole dishes from neighbors and friends. With so much going on, none of us have had the time or desire to cook. So we’ve been surviving on the generosity of others and the swiftness of the food delivery guys.

But tonight’s not the night for leftovers. It’s the first night of our new normal, and even if Everest is determined to sabotage it, the least we can do is eat dinner as a… “family.”

I twitch even just thinking the word. Ivy and I are family, there’s no question about that. But me and Everest? God, I rue the day.

Before Mom left, she and Nell made a trip to the grocery store for some basics. Fruits and vegetables. Family packs of chicken that I can divvy up and freeze. I’m not a gourmet chef, but I’m pretty decent. I’ve cooked for myself regularly since college and I have an impressive collection of cookbooks back at my place. I make a mental note to look up more kid-friendly recipes. Maybe even ones that Ivy and I can cook together.

I pull out vegetables and chicken for an Asian stir fry. It’s simple. Easy. It’s a recipe I got from Eden and I know for a fact that Ivy likes it.

My mind wanders as I cook. Everest and I need to figure out a game plan for getting Ivy ready for school in the mornings. Most days, I should be able to drop her off on my way to work. But Everest will need to pick her up when she’s done. I don’t know if he’s spoken to his bosses at Mars yet, but he’ll need to change his work schedule to accommodate.

We’ll need to get in touch with that babysitting agency. I’m loathe to leave Ivy with a babysitter if we can avoid it. Especially considering what happened the last time she was left with a babysitter. But there might be days when it’s unavoidable.

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