Page 165 of Hide and Keep

I sit back on my heels to look down at Crue. He brings his hands up under his head, his elbows out and raised a few inches off the mat.

“What if someone’s between your legs?”

“What do you mean?”

“This is only one position, right? You can get pinned in other ways?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, what if someone’s trying to pin you and they’re between your legs?”

“Between your legs how?”

Walking on my knees over to his bent legs, I spread them wide.

Crue automatically cups his package. “What are you doing?”

“Showing you what I mean.”

He doesn’t remove his hands, but I lower my top half between his thighs to demonstrate.

Pressing my palms on the floor next to his ribs, I hold myself suspended above him so none of me is technically touching any of him.

“Like this.”

Guys have looked down at me from this position but I’ve never done it to them. I’ve been on top, but not between their legs like this. It feels more powerful somehow, maybe because the person on bottom is vulnerable. I couldn’t imagine imposing my power on someone like this. To be between someone else’s legs who doesn’t want you there and still proceed to fulfill your own wishes, all for your own pleasure, that’s despicable.

“Yeah… This doesn’t really happen in wrestling,” Crue drawls.

“In the history of wrestling, I’m sure there has been at least one time where someone ended up between another person’s legs.”

“If it did happen, the person on the bottom was fucked and probably lost.”

“But what if…they hadn’t lost yet? What if there was still time?”

“Time?”

“Like on the clock,” I rush out, then look away. “Or whatever.”

Maybe I am fucked.

I start to sit back until Crue’s knees clamp on my sides, trapping me.

“Where are you going? We’re not done.”

“Why not? It’s not like you even wanted to teach me how to wrestle anyway.”

“You didn’t want to teach me how to stunt but you did.”

“Tit for tat,” I accuse right back.

“You want to know how I’d get out of this?”

“Yes.”

“You give me permission to wrestle you?”

Pressing forward, Crue’s knees loosen to let me lean down until I’m only a few inches from his face. My eyes alternating between his…that are alternating between mine and my lips, I say, “I give you permission to do anything youwantto me.”

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