Page 73 of Delirium

But it had felt pretty damn real to him.

We sat like that, looking at each other in the silence that seemed to stretch on for centuries. Finally James smiled, a real smile that reached his eyes. “Well, at least I get to be one of those lucky few who gets a first time all over again.”

I grinned back. “Interesting way to look at it.”

He pulled me down again, and this time I kissed him without worrying about the rest of it. Everything else was secondary to this moment, even the rain that continued to pour down around us.

“We’ll go slow,” he mumbled against my lips. “Slow as you want.”

I nodded between kisses, not sure how to explain I didn’twantto go slow. I just wanted him.

James tugged at my shirt, until I pulled it over my head, and the look in his eyes was something I wanted to memorize.

“You’re perfect,” he whispered, running his hand down my body, across my breasts, trailing over my stomach. “Every inch of you is more perfect than I ever could’ve imagined.”

I pulled at his briefs helping him shuffle them off until he too was exposed to the night and the rain and whatever it was that stretched between us.

He really was bigger than I’d expected. I wrapped my hands around his cock, stroking him softly.

“Are you sure?” James reached for my wrist, stilling me.

I nodded. There was no universe in which I wasn’t sure about this. About him. About us.

I leaned forward, fitting him between my legs until his cock pressed up against my entrance.

He took the opportunity to grab my chin, pulling me down for a bruising kiss. “You are everything to me.”

James rocked his hips up, his cock slipping inside the tiniest amount. I gasped, still feeling the stretch. I had a feeling James was going to push my boundaries in completely different ways than Nash and Camp had.

I sank back onto him, taking him deeper, and he cursed. “Fuck, seeing you like this on top of me…you’re sure I’m not dreaming?”

I moaned as I took another inch of him inside, my core clenching and tightening around him. “Fairly sure,” I gasped. “Unless we’re both dreaming. In which case, please don’t wake me up.”

Rolling my hips again, he sank in deeper, until he was completely inside me. I was positively stretched to my limits, like I was going to come with the slightest movement of James’ body.

James groaned, rocking his hips up into me. “Goddamn, love. Please tell me I can move.”

“You’re good,” I breathed, clutching onto his shoulders and thrusting back onto him. “Sogood.”

He reached up and grabbed my hips, driving himself in deeper. “I’ll go slow.”

“No.” I dug my nails into his flesh. “You won’t.”

James blinked up at me. “Okay. I won’t.”

It didn’t take us long at all to find our rhythm, and every thrust of his cock made me feel like I was about to explode. I was so sensitive, and James grabbed me tighter, fucked me harder, and looked at me in a way that made my heart hurt.

All the sensitivity started to build in my core, driving my hips faster against him. “Oh, James. Oh, God.”

“Come on, love. Come on my cock. I need to see it. Need to hear it.” James’ fingers were digging into me, his cock hitting something just right. “Come.”

I cried out his name as I shattered around him, falling into a million pieces as he held me together. Somewhere through the orgasm, I could hear him calling out my name, his hips stuttering and falling beneath me as he came.

I collapsed on top of him, our heartbeats blending into one as we both came down from our high. Then again, maybe they’d always been like that. Violently the same, even as we fought to deny it.

I don’t know how long we lay on the deck, tangled in each other, the warm rain washing over us, the night sky a blanket around us. I only knew I was safe in this moment, wrapped in James’ arms, and as soon as the moment was broken real life would come throttling back all too quickly.

But moments end, and time moves on. A door opened and closed somewhere in the distance. A slow clap made me scramble upright.

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