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Even though I can’t see his whole face, I can tell his eyebrows dip. “I will.”

He leans over me, putting his cock against my hole. I think he’s going to shove inside and I hold my breath, poised for the pain of his intrusion. Instead, North bends down and kisses me, slow and sweet.

He’s getting me out of my head. He’s bringing me to the present, to be here with him. How the fuck does he read me so easily? How does he know I was pulled out of our scene by my fear?

I don’t question it for too long, because I get caught up in him once again. His tongue is soft against mine, making love to my mouth. I sigh into him, wrapping my legs around his waist.

When I’m putty underneath him, North pulls his mouth away. Then he slides inside me.

My body seizes as he pushes in, the sting more than I thought it would be. An anguished groan leaves my throat as he feeds me inch after inch of his big dick. When he bottoms out, he freezes, not even breathing. He rises up on his elbows and looks down at me, his eyes reflecting a surprise I don’t think he’s ever shown before.

After another second, he bends back down to my ear. In a low voice, he asks, “Are you a virgin?”

I should have known I couldn’t hide anything from North. Even when I don’t want him to, he sees me. He’s theonlyperson that sees me.

I really hope I didn’t fuck up by not telling him. Hopefully my reasons make sense to him.

“Yes,” I whimper around a tight throat. “I am.”

Chapter 14

North

Virgin.

I can tell by the shocked, blissed out expression on his face as soon as I bottom out inside him, but hearing him say it…

Ranen is avirgin.

It shouldn’t matter—it shouldn’t make something in my chest draw up tight.

It doesn’t matter to me at all that he’d been with other people until the moment I realize hehasn’tbeen withanyone. As soon as he says it, it’s the only thing I can think about.

I noticed something earlier—how shy he was, the way he kept stuttering his words like there was something he wanted to tell me—but I’d written it off as nerves. As much as I want him, as much as I’m sure he belongs to me, I understand that he isn’t the same kind of person I am. I’ve been here for a few weeks, and it was probably trauma alone that made it so easy for me to maneuver myself into his life…

He probably isn’tobsessedthe way I am. But… I thought he was nervous about it beingourfirst time, nothisfirst time.

I get to have that.

I get to haveeverypiece of him. All of it. Every part of him can belong to me, and I get to show each person who has ever lusted over his ass, each person who has ever gotten off to watching him get off…

I get to show them that he’s mine.

My cock has never been so hard in my life. A swirling mixture of lust and possessive need nearly blinds me, and I move—tension runs through every muscle as I force myself not to start fucking him into the mattress.

Not to hurt him.

Not to take his virginity like a man blinded by the knowledge thatno one elsehas touched these parts of Ranen before.

No one but me.

“Only me.” I breathe the words against his lips. It’s not soft or sweet. It’s a demand that I want to feed into his mouth so it drenches his soul. I want the rhythm of his heart to spell my name, the air in his lungs to taste like the saccharine knowledge that he’smine.

Ranen looks up at me with his blue eyes wide, darkened with lust like storm clouds rolling over the horizon, and all he can do is nod. My fingers clench, and I bring one hand to his hair, taking hold and pulling his head back until he’s looking at me. “Say it so they can hear you,Cas.”

He shivers, his eyes wet and sweet when he looks up at me. “Onlyyou.”

Fuck, I want to make it rain—I want to make him cry with how much he wants me, how fuckinggoodI can make him feel.

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