Page 42 of Always Watching

North chuckles, though surprise flashes through his eyes. “You really think so, huh?”

“Yeah. Who wouldn’t? Calvin was really good looking. If I were into slimmer men—”

The growl that leaves North’s throat should scare me, but it does the opposite. It lights me up and makes my dick hard. North feels it and grinds against me, holding on tight to my ass. “You’re not into slimmer men, right?”

“No,” I whimper, rolling my hips against him.

“Good. Dad can have this Calvin. You belong to me.”

“Yes.”

It takes only another minute of North letting me use his body for friction before I’m coming in my pants, my body shuddering against him. The whole while, North gazes into my eyes, watching as I come apart above him.

North kisses me hard, then follows me over the cliff into his release.

My body is still shuddering from my orgasm when North pulls his mouth away and slaps my ass. I yelp, the twinge of pain making my cock twitch. “Let’s get cleaned up, then I’ll cook breakfast.”

“You spoil me,” I murmur, kissing the underside of his chin.

He looks down at me with a look of surprise. “I like taking care of you. It’s… easy.”

I grin and wrap my arms around him. “I’ll learn how to take care of you too.”

“You do more than you know, Ranen. Come on. We’re both a mess.”

We climb out of bed and shower together. I take my time washing him, chronicling all his tattoos and muscles, taking stock of his large body. He’s fucking perfection.

My phone is ringing off the hook when we get out of the shower. I jog over to my nightstand and scoop it up. It’s Olly.

I hold the phone up and turn to North. “Olly’s calling.”

“Take it. Come join me in the kitchen when you’re done.” He gives me a quick kiss and heads out to get breakfast started.

I answer the phone before it can tumble into voicemail. “Hey, Olly.”

“Hey. How are you?”

“Good. Tired.” I lie back on the bed. “What are you up to?”

“Not much.” He pauses, then blows out a long breath. “Are you okay? I saw your show yesterday, even though you aired it days ago. Whoever that guy was, he looked like he was really rough with you.”

I grin, thinking about exactly how rough North wasn’t. He treated me well. I’m sure it would have been different if we weren’t on cam, and maybe more different still if I told him I was a virgin beforehand, but it was great.

Turning to my side, I say, “No, he wasn’t. It was exactly what I wanted my first time to be. Well, maybe it should have been off cam.” I chuckle.

“You know I always offered to help you through your first time. I wouldn’t have treated you that way… making you do all the work to show off for your viewers.”

I sigh. “He didn’t. Olly, I enjoyed myself. I know you offered, but I wanted my first time on my terms. That’s what happened. I chose this for me, not just to stop being a virgin. Please don’t make me feel bad about it.”

What Olly thinks means a lot to me—he’s my best friend. He was there for me right after shit went down with my grandpa, and he’s been a rock ever since. I don’t want to second-guess whether I should have let him take my virginity just to get it out of the way. There was no real reason why I waited, but having sex with North as my first felt right.

“Okay,” he says with a hollow tone. “You’re right, and I’m sorry.” He pauses, then I hear a smile in his tone. “It looked hot, though. I could tell you enjoyed yourself. Do you plan to do it again, or was that just to make it up to your subs for missing a few shows?”

“I don’t know,” I say honestly. “It was one of my most profitable shows. Even more than ours, and that’s saying something. And itwasreally hot. I liked people watching me be that intimate with someone else. I’ll have to think about it, though.”

“Well, be careful.”

“Always.”

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