Page 47 of My Mistake To Make

I have promised, not only the three amigos, but also myself that I will try. I’ll try to be more open. I’ll try to push past my worries and fears, and mostly, with mounting pressure from Bree, I promised that I’d watch porn. So, for the first time in my life, at just shy of thirty years old, I unlock my iPad, open the link my new friend sent me, and settle back.

‘Okay, Cara,’ I ready myself, ‘prepare to be aroused.’

And with that, I press play.

Oh Shit. It’s Like That

Doug

‘Oh, hey,’ Bree greetsme warmly as I walk into the living room. ‘I was starting to forget what you looked like.’

This has been the longest I’ve gone without spending time with my sisters since I moved back to town, but I’ve been busy. Bowie and I went up to visit with Grandma, and aside from that, I’ve been working my ass off up at the house.

‘Yeah, you know how it is.’ I’m too tired to get into it with her.

‘Oh, no shitty response. Damn, you must really be feeling it.’

‘I’m dead on my fuckin’ feet,’ I admit, dropping to sit on her sofa and leaning back into the cushions.

‘Why are you pushing yourself so hard? And why are you still working alone? Cara is not rushing you, and you know she’ll pay for you to get some guys in.’

‘I like being up there alone.’ The quiet is good, and somehow, I’ve managed not to think about Cara or about that kiss. But now her name is out there again, along with memories of her body pressed against mine and her sweet mouth opening for me. Fuck me. I’ve never had a kiss like that. I came to my senses in time because I know she would have let me strip and fuck her right there. Her body melted for me. She was putty in my hands, and walking away is the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

‘Hello, hello,’ Zoe calls out from the hallway. ‘The party has arrived.’ She enters the living room and stops. ‘Well, it looks as though the party is over. Jeez, baby brother, are you doing okay?’

‘He’s tired because he’s being a stubborn ass and still working alone.’

‘Doug, get in some guys before you get hurt up there.’

‘I will. All I’ve been doing is clearing the space and the first round of repairs. I have some guys coming in next week.’

‘Are they hot?’ Zoe asks, and I glare at her. ‘What? A girl has needs.’

I shake my head—my fucking sisters and their sex positivity! I’m all for it, fuck knows I’ve always been open to trying anything, but do they really have to tell me everything?

‘Ooh, did you try it?’ She turns her attention to Bree, who nods enthusiastically.

‘Oh my god, yes. Did you?’

‘Girl, I’m surprised you didn’t hear me. That thing is sent from heaven.’

‘Oh no, it is way too sinful for that. This one came up, not down.’

‘I know I’m going to regret asking this, but what the fuck are y’all talking about?’

‘Clit sucking vibrators.’

Why the fuck did I ask? Why the fuck did I take a drink while waiting for the answer? Beer comes out of my nose, and I sit up, coughing while my sisters laugh.

‘Well, you asked.’ Zoe smirks.

‘You think Cara tried hers?’

I snap my gaze to Bree.

‘Cara got one?’ I didn’t mean to ask that, but it’s out there now, and my sisters both turn their attention to me. ‘I mean, she just looks a little uptight for that sort of thing.’ Oh, nice save. Dickhead.

My sisters look at each other, a silent conversation happening that they don’t let me in on before they shrug, and Bree picks up the bag of chips in front of her.

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