Page 75 of His Blue Moon Princess

It’s not enough. I want him, but I want all of him. Tonia’s probably right. If I get to know Damian better, I will probably be able to overcome my fear, and trust him, won’t I?

“Bobo says you should have him take you on a date. Isn’t your birthday tomorrow? Ask him then.”

I almost forgot about my birthday! Do I want to celebrate it? After what I learned from Alec yesterday, I didn’t think about such things, but now it seems a bit unreal. Is it even my real birth date? Dad probably knew... I hesitate a bit, biting my lip. It might be an idea. I look at Bobo, sitting next to my bed. Sometimes I really wish the big wolf would take human form and talk to me.

“You really think so?”

The brown wolf nods. I sigh and turn to Tonia. “Okay... Can I borrow your phone?”

After a few minutes, Damian finally answers the call. “Nora. How are you?”

Thank Moon Goddess, he doesn’t sound angry or anything. Is he really over what happened yesterday? Gosh, I feel so awkward now...

“I’m fine. I feel much better. Damian, I... I’m sorry about yesterday.”

I hear him sighing softly. “It’s okay. I figured out what happened afterward. It’s not the first time. I’m the one who should apologize, I got carried away.”

“No! No, Damian, it’s... it’s just me.”

It’s my fault because I’m damaged. I’m scared, way too scared. And I still don’t know how to overcome it, even for you. I nervously run my fingers through my hair, fidgeting.

“I just need a bit of time. I’m still... shy.”

Shy, really? It’s the understatement of the year! I’m literally terrified by the idea of a man touching me, yet that’s all I can tell him? How pathetic, Nora. I need to get stronger.Didn’t I promise myself to leave my past behind me? How will I if I let myself be restrained by such things? I need to work on it.

I need to tell him the truth, to Damian, at least.

“...Nora?”

“I’m still scared, Damian. I still think about what happened whenever someone touches me. I swear I don’t want to, but it just... I don’t know how to handle it for now.”

A long silence follows. What is he thinking? Does he regret having such a complicated mate? Or will he search for Marcus once again? Alec only implied he had died, but that’s still an unsolved issue for now. When are we going to find the truth? I did stab him, but what happened afterward? If he died, what about his body? I’m still feeling uneasy about this. And it’s hindering my relationship with Damian.

“I told you, it’s okay.”

“But what if... It takes a long time for me to get better? I’m scared.”

“Scared of what?”

Scared that you might not want me anymore at some point. It’s already a miracle for Damian to be interested in me! I’m not pretty, or remarkable in any way. Compared to Damian, to his brothers, I’m utterly insignificant. And yet here I am, making him wait for me. I hate it, I wish things were different.

“Nora, don’t cry.”

I wonder how he knows. I’m tearing up a little bit. If only all these nightmares with my parents, Alec, the Jade Moon Clan, Marcus, all this, never happened... It would be so much easier. I could have lived a completely different life, where I might actually be deserving of Damian’s affection. I wipe my tears away. Enough crying, already.

“I’m okay. Damian, can we see each other?”

“I can come tonight. After work.”

“No, I meant like a... an actual date.”

I’m red, definitely red. I wish I could hide somewhere. I stepped away from Tonia and Bobo, but I feel their eyes on me still.

“...You want me to take you on a date?”

“If you’re busy, it’s okay, I just... It was just an idea, I...”

“Okay. Where do you want to go?”

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