Page 85 of Always Been You

“Yeah, you have always brightened my days. No matter what my head space is, I get into a room with you and I see your smile or hear your laugh and it’s like a weight has been taken off my shoulders. Everything seems brighter, like you’ve filled the room with sunshine. You’re my sunshine.”

No one has ever said something so nice and heartwarming about me. I mean, my siblings and I are close and we are always there for each other, but to know that I have such a profound impact on someone’s life is insane.

“So you’ve been sending me flowers on my birthday? Why haven’t you said anything before?” I ask, genuinely curious.

I am beyond happy with where Josh and I are right now, but the what-ifs can’t stop racing through my brain. What if we started dating sooner? Would I have not lost part of my feeling of self-worth like I did the last few years? Would we be married and settled and already have started our own little family? Nothing can change the past, but I do want to know why he kept it a secret.

He takes a deep breath. “Well, at first, you were sixteen, and I was nineteen. You were still in high school and I tried not to feel anything. I thought it was wrong. Then when you graduated high school I was worried about what your reaction would be, plus I was still on the other side of thecontinent, and when I was finally about to pull my head out my ass and tell you and see if you’d let me take you out I found out you were dating Drew. I wanted you to be happy and wasn’t going to break something that made you happy.”

I turn his words over in my mind, understanding his hesitance when I was sixteen and the distance that was between us, and his not wanting to end something that he thought was making me happy. All of what he did was with the best intentions in mind, doing what he thought was best for me. I continue to look into his eyes as my fingers scrape at his scalp at the bottom of his head.

“For what it’s worth, I had a crush on you when we were kids, like for as long as I can remember. I always viewed you as unattainable. If you had asked me out, I would have one hundred percent said yes.” He leans down and places a soft kiss on my lips and leans his forehead against mine. “But, I have to say I’m extremely happy with where we are now. So why don’t we eat dinner and then head to bed where I can show you just how happy I am to be with you now?”

“That sounds great, Sunshine.”

I grin at hearing him actually call me this secret nickname that he’s had for me for years.

I kiss him before turning around and pulling the lasagna out of the oven. We sit at the kitchen island and eat our dinner. We talk a little more about the barbecue plans before we clear our plates, put them into the dishwasher and head into our room.

Olivia leads meinto the bedroom while holding my hand. I had planned on telling her about the flowers eventually, although I wasn’t sure just how she would react to the revelation. As Olivia’s mom started revealing things to her and I saw her connecting the dots in her mind had me wound tight. I know she loves me, but I was worried that the revelations might change her view of me, and it did, but in a positive way.

The what-ifs have gone through my mind several times over the years. If I had opened up to Olivia earlier, would I have been living a happier life? Would we already have started a family? Would I have saved her from some of the heartache that she’s been through or would she have gone through different heartache? At this point, there is nothing that either of us can change, but I can spend the rest of my days showing this amazing woman how much I love her; raise our beautiful children and love them as fiercely as I love their mom.

As soon as the bedroom door closes, Olivia is kissing me. One of my hands grips the hair at the base of her head, while the other goes to her hip, where I pull her into me. I nip at her lip and a moan leaves her throat, sending heat through my body. I walk her backwards toward the bed, gripping the bottom of her shirt and pulling it up and over her head, discarding it on the floor.

With the break in space between us, she reaches for mine and I help her remove it, her lips meet my chest as she kisses across my chest using her tongue to flick each of my nipples much in the same way I do hers and it still surprises me that it does something for me.

She continues to kiss her way down until she drops to her knees in front of me. I’m hard as steel in my dress slacks. She reaches for my belt, deftly undoing it, leaving it in the loops around my waist. She then reaches for the button, then the zipper before she grips the waistband and slowly pulls them down my legs. She looks up at me, licking her lips, and I groan.

“Christ, woman, you are driving me crazy.”

There’s a lustful glint in her eyes as she grips me through my boxer briefs before she leans forward and licks me from root to tip through the fabric. I can feel the heat of her hot mouth through the fabric. My hand grips her hair tightly, pulling her back and tilting her head so that she has to look at me.

“Olivia, stop fucking teasing me and take my cock out.”

She visibly swallows, and I track the movement. Reaching forward, she grips the waistband of my underwear and pulls them down and I pop free. My underwear falls to my ankles. She reaches forward and grips me in her hand, stroking me twice before she leans forward and licks me from root to tip, flicking her tongue over the head. I throw my head back and a guttural groan leaves my throat as she takes me into her mouth.

She uses her hand to pump the base, while her other hand comes up to roll my balls. She continues to suck my cock and roll my balls until I can feel my balls get heavy. I’m about to come. Before I can, I pull my hips back, put my hands under her arms, lift her up to her feet, and kiss her.

Our mouths fight for control of the kiss. I break the kiss, lean her down on the bed and remove her leggings and panties in one movement before climbing between her legs and hovering over her. My lips find the soft skin of her neck as I kiss and lick all her sensitive spots. She moans and bucks her hips when I find that particular spot behind her ear.

“Stop teasing me Josh,” she mewls.

I position my hard cock at her entrance and fully seed myself in one thrust, consuming her loud moan with a kiss. I move slowly, drawing out the pleasure. She meets my thrusts with her hips as her hands roam over my back, her fingers scraping at my skin.

“God, you’re perfect,” I say into her ear as I pick up speed.

“Josh.” Her fingers scrape harder. “You fill me so well, Josh.”

I lean back, positioning myself on my knees, and lift her legs so that I’m holding them under her knees and relentlessly fuck her deep into the mattress. I watch as her tits bounce with each thrust.

“Look at you, Olivia, taking my cock like a good girl.” She clenches around me at the praise.

“I love watching those beautiful tits bounce as I fuck you.”

Her fingers come and play with her nipples and I feel her tighten around me. I release one of her legs and use my thumb to find her clit. Two quick swipes and she detonates around me, calling my name. After a few more pumps, I follow directly behind her, collapsing on top of her. We both lie there, chest heaving. When I can feel the air coming backinto my lungs more easily, I place a quick kiss on her lips before I withdraw from her and roll over to my side.

Olivia gets out of bed and pads her way to the washroom and does her business and when I hear the shower turn on, I get up and join her. Stepping in behind her, I reach and grab her soap and meticulously wash every inch of her body. On my knees, I place my hands on either side of her stomach, kiss it, and rest my forehead against it for a few moments. Getting up, a sweet smile spread across her face. I grab the shampoo and wash her hair, using my fingers to scrub her scalp in the way I know she loves. After I condition it for her, she does the same for me and we climb out of the shower, drying off before climbing into bed.

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