Page 21 of The Secret's Out

“Have you ever...?” Eli started. I looked to him to see his cheeks held a tinge of red. I bit my bottom lip to keep from laughing at this biker man getting embarrassed about something. He cleared his throat. “Have you ever been with anyone other than that fuckhead?”

Now I understood why he’d been embarrassed, because now I was as well.

“I, oh, heck. Um.” Instead of answering, I shook my head, my gaze to my lap. I couldn’t believe we were talking about it already. It seemed two years should have severed our connection, but having them there, it was obvious it hadn’t. They still felt they could ask or say anything that was on their minds to me.

“Billy,” Caden growled.

“Shit, sorry.” Eli sighed.

Caden obviously knew it was too soon to be talking about such things. Which left Eli probably feeling as though he’d done something terrible for even bringing it up. I didn’t want him to feel that way. I would like to talk to them both about it, only just not yet. I didn’t know where it was all going. I didn’t know if they were staying or if I still had to pick between them. Goodness, I didn’t even know what I was thinking.

I couldn’t think that.

Having them both.

It wasn’t right.

Still, the thought of it, of having the two men who had stolen my heart many years ago, caused my heart to race and my lady parts to quiver.

Suddenly, I stood. “I um, I have to get ready for work.”

Caden nodded. “We’re gonna quickly grab some things and make some calls. We’ll see you at your work. Are you okay getting there?”

After nodding, I started for the doorway, only to stop and look over my shoulder. “Eli,” I called and he looked over at me. “I don’t mind you asking. I would like...one day, to talk about these things. I guess, I’m just shy and still confused.”

“Confused about what, sweetheart?”

Was I really going to say it? “Confused about the way you both make my body want to feel again.” Yes, I was. With that, I left two stunned bikers in the kitchen.

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