Page 43 of The Secret's Out

Chapter Eleven

Pick

Dammit. Her mind had just caught up with her body. As soon as I felt her body tense up when my fingers touched the outer part of her soaked pussy’s lips, I removed them. Billy went up to his elbows to look down at her. She had a hand flung over her eyes. Before we got the chance to say anything, she moved, scooting up the bed until her back hit the headboard.

“I-I’m sorry, so sorry.” Her words were laced with sadness.

Eli moved up next to her where I stayed halfway down, only getting to my knees. “Why are you sorry, sweetheart?” Eli asked gently.

“I ruined it.”

“No, babe, you didn’t.” He smiled down at her and took her hand. “Could you, maybe tell us what happened in that beautiful head of yours?”

With her free hand, she quickly pulled down her tee and then placed her hand over her eyes, while she shook her head back and forth. Fuck, her bottom lip trembled and I wanted to punch a fuckin’ dead guy for fuckin’ her mind up.

“Precious, you’re safe with us and, baby, you can tell us anything.” I laid a hand on her bare foot. She flinched.

Clenching my jaw before I yelled the house down, I moved my hand away from her. She shifted her hand away from her face. Her eyes wide, she reached out to me, and I took her outstretched hand in mine.

“I-I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to flinch. I’m sorry. Goodness, I’m so sorry. I enjoyed everything that was happening, but then my mind took me back there. It took me to that room.” Her hand went over her mouth.

“Sweetheart. What happened in that room? Babe, we need to know so we don’t do something that will freak you out again,” Eli asked.

She nodded her understanding, only said nothing. She looked from me to Billy and back again. Then her eyes glanced over the bedding. She sucked in a breath. “He would come in and he would...he did things to me. He would...he’d say nothing except—” She bit down hard on her bottom lip to keep it from trembling. Billy dropped her hand to move his to her mouth. She let up biting as he ran his thumb over her lip again and again.

She smiled sadly up at him and then her eyes went back to the bed. Was she ashamed to look at us when she spoke of her fucked-up times? She shouldn’t feel the need to hide her gorgeous eyes from us. We needed her to know that.

“I had to call him daddy when...when he was in me. Every time he’d roughly put his...um, his fingers in me and then he’d rip my clothes from my body and take me.”

“Motherfuckin’ cunt,” Billy hissed.

Glaring at Billy to control his wayward anger, he gave me a nod. Even though on the inside fury blazed a trail through my own veins. His nostrils flared again and again. I knew what he was thinkin’ ‘cause I was thinkin’ the same thing. We wanted a chance to kill the fucker again. At least his life was snubbed out by my own hands.

“Sweetheart, what...what he did will never happen with us. When Pick put his hands down your pants, did that set you off?”

She nodded.

Christ. I’d made her go back there. I caused it and that gutted me.

With what I’d been through, I should have known better. We should have talked before anything like that happened. But we were caught up in the moment and hell, I never would have thought something like seein’ Billy and me together like that would have started it. At the time, all I could think about was Billy’s body gettin’ me off and then to know Josie, our girl, was watchin’ us and likin’ it... I was crazed to please her in that way, by just havin’ her watch us.

Fuck, I was the one to bring back her hell.

My hand fell from hers and I went to climb off the bed. I couldn’t take being in there knowing I brought back the memory of her abuser.

“Caden,” Josie cried out. I turned to face her. All of her fear disappeared as she glared at me. Instead, she was pissed about something. I would have laughed if I wasn’t feelin’ sorry for myself. “Don’t you dare leave.”

“Baby, it’s okay. I should have known better. We should have talked through the things that could set you off before jumping the gun and doin’ it.” I wiped my hand down my face. “You need some rest. Billy should stay in here for the night with you, precious. In case...hell, in case any nightmares come from what I’d done.”

“No!” she snapped and got to her knees. “I-ah, okay, I’m going to say this.” Her cheeks tinted pink. “I liked what was going on. I...I wanted something more to happen. I-I still do, I’m not used to feeling my body react like that. But, um, maybe...I don’t know, maybe I could remove my clothes first?”

Holy shit.

Billy’s head shot to me. Mine to him and we stared at each other. Had we heard right?

“I don’t want him,” she snarled with her lip raised and all, fuck it was cute, “to come between the three of us.”

“But, sweetheart—” Billy started.

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