Page 39 of Ruin

Knife cracked up, Beast chuckled, but I about pissed myself.

Wolf knew sign language. How?

“How do you know sign language?” Beast asked. I was grateful, as I couldn’t seem to move.

This is true.He’d said that to my brothers. That he wanted to eat me. Wasn’t I supposed to be grossed out by knowing that?

I wasn’t.

In fact, my body reacted the opposite to the information.

Heart, pulse, gut. All of them went haywire and…. Christ, I wanted to reach over and take his mouth.

I wanted to kiss a man.

They spoke back and forth about stuff I didn’t take note of, and I watched Wolf easily charm my brothers as they laughed about something.

If I wasn’t sitting in a bar, would I have the guts to do something about this attraction? Would I have the nerve to actually kiss him?

There went my stomach twisting in that same way from the thought of taking his mouth.

“Ruin?”

Goddamn, I wished I was any place but here so I could test myself and see if I’d do anything.

“Ruin?”

Why did it have to be him?

What made him different from any other guy? Shit, I’d known good-looking guys throughout my life. I had other guys hit on me, and none of them stirred something up inside of me like this.

“Joshua?” Wolf uttered, and I blinked from a daze.

“Huh?” I glanced to Knife and Beast. The first was smirking while taking a sip of his new beer. When had Dive brought it back? The second was chuckling low.

A hand touched my arm, and I looked down at it.

He had such pale skin. So different to mine.

“Are you all right?” Wolf asked.

Knife snorted and commented, “I’m guessin’ he is, but busy sortin’ his head out.”

I nodded. “I’m good.” I couldn’t meet his gaze, though, aware my face was hot from being lost in my own thoughts of the man next to me. “You think Mimi is ready to go?”

“I’ll go see,” Wolf said and stood, making his way to the dance floor where Mimi was with Rommy.

“Babe, give us a moment,” Knife said. Beast stood and reached over to grip my shoulder. He lifted his chin at me, and I returned it.

“What?” I asked Knife when Beast walked over to the bar where Billy was.

“Like I said, it’s scary shit to start with, but if you got this cravin’, it’s best to give it a go so you don’t regret anythin’ in the end.”

“Knife,” I groaned, running a hand over my face.

Knife clasped my shoulder. “Brother, listen to me. Things change in life for a reason, and maybe your reason is on that dance floor tryin’ to get his sister to leave because he knows you want to go. I fought what I felt for Beast because women were my thing before Beast opened me up to somethin’ else. Don’t kill yourself over this. There ain’t anythin’ wrong with likin’ a guy.”

“I know that.”

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