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I was either going to vomit or poop myself with all the nerves moving through me like a wildfire.

Glancing around again, I swallowed thickly and shook out my hands.

Please don’t vomit.

Or shit yourself.

Someone bumped into me, and I smiled softly at Maya, who’d been the culprit.

“Are you okay?” she asked.

Nodding, I drew in a shaky breath. “Yeah. I think. I just want this to be done.”

“Swan, Joshua just informed me you know Lockland,” Wolf said.

“Ah, I did. He used to live next door to my family.”

Wolf’s eyes widened. “Next door?”

“Yes,” I whispered when people around us started to look at us more and try to listen in. “We were friends, and then life got busy.”

“My boo, you’re not gonna swoon over this guy, right?” Ruin asked Wolf. “I’m better lookin’, right?”

Wolf patted Ruin’s arm. “Yes, yes, better.”

Ruin’s brows pinched, and I caught Ryo turning away to chuckle silently while Link watched Ryo with adoration in his gaze.

So many of my friends had found happiness with the person they wanted to spend the rest of their lives with.

I wanted that.

When I saw all their love and caring, it made my heart ache that I didn’t have anyone who would cherish me like my friends’ partners did.

Clenching my jaw, I shook my head.

I didn’t need to wallow. It was my own fault after all.

I longed for someone who’d forgotten about me.

And now you’re about to see him.

Shit, shit, shit.

“Move up,” someone called.

Wolf shot them a glare. “We will when we’re ready.”

Ruin chuckled, curling Wolf into his body and shifting them up the line.

There were two women in front of me.

Only two.

I’d said I’d wanted to go first to get this over with, but now I was second-guessing my choice.

I grabbed Maya’s arm. “You go before me.”

“What? No. You should.”

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