“Done what?” I asked carefully, without turning around.
“Made love to a man,” she replied, and I groaned under my breath, my hand clenching around the handle. “Or even kissed one.”
Fuck me, she was a virgin! It shouldn’t have mattered, but it did. Sunaina didn’t know what she was doing to me. The fact that I was her first kiss made me feel about twelve feet tall and gutted me at the same time. I knew the significance of what shewas offering. But it made it all the more important that I didn’t lead her on.
“I have nothing to offer you,” I said harshly. “Except sex.”
I heard her get off the bed and walk towards me, and I turned around to face her.
“Do you want me?” she asked bluntly.
“What do you think?” I replied sarcastically.
“Let’s leave the power games out of this, Viren. As you can see, I have absolutely no experience with these games. I’ve never played them. I’m asking you to be honest with me if you’re not attracted to me because when it comes to sex, I’m not good at reading between the lines. And it’s absolutely fine if you say you don’t want me,” she said, her head held high.
But I could read the vulnerability coming off loud and clear. It was evident in the way she held herself, with her arms crossed over her chest defensively. She was bracing herself for a rejection. God! This woman was going to be the death of me, I thought, running a hand over my face wearily.
“I don’t want your pity,” she added sharply.
I let out a bitter laugh.
“Trust me, wifey. Pity is the last thing on my mind right now. I’m trying to remember why I decided to be a gentleman while my body is raging at me for being a fucking fool.”
She shrugged lightly, and her t-shirt slid off her shoulder, revealing the smooth skin underneath.
“You’ve never behaved like a gentleman with me before, so why start now?” she quipped. “But it’s fine. You don’t need an excuse for not wanting me. I’m going to bed now.”
She turned away from me stiffly, and something inside me exploded.
“Are you fucking blind?” I roared, furious with her for refusing to see how much I wanted her. It was all very well for me to be noble about not taking advantage of her, but I couldn’tunderstand why she kept telling herself I didn’t want her. How could I not want her when she was sheer perfection?
She whirled around in anger.
“Don’t yell at me, Viren Chaudhry!”
“Then stop talking utter nonsense, Sunaina Chaudhry,” I retorted. “I’m not saying no because I don’t want you. I’m trying to do the right thing!”
“Fuck doing the right thing,” she yelled. “I’m sick and tired of always doing the right thing! I’m sick of always being good.”
“All right, then,” I whispered, grabbing her hand and pulling her into my arms. “Let’s be bad. Let’s be very, very bad.”
CHAPTER 15
SUNAINA
Oy!
I was all on board to be bad, but I hadn’t the faintest idea how.
“Are you sure?” I asked, giving Viren an out if he wanted one.
I didn’t want a pity fuck for the first time that I made love. I wanted him to want me as much as I wanted him.
“Chickening out already?” he asked with a feral smile, and I straightened my spine.
“Of course not,” I hissed. “I’m just helping you save face if you want to chicken out.”
“Not on your life, wifey. But let’s get one thing clear. Sex is all I have to give you. Don’t expect forever because I just don’t have it in me,” he warned.