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"How? I mean, I know how, but…how?"

Only Tanner is silent, but that's because his jaw is on the floor.

"I'll explain everything. But first, there's someone I want you guys to meet."

I lead the gang into the guest room I've converted into Ashton's nursery. He's still asleep, but he can sleep througheverything. He once fell asleep when I had Kendrick Lamar blaring at full volume.

Once the guys are done with cooing and gushing over him, we settle down in the beanbag corner, and I tell them the story about how I found out I had fathered a child. "I'm worried about this getting out," I finish.

"Ohhh. Now it makes sense," Beckett says.

"What makes sense?"

"You pretending to like the reporter." Beckett nods. "You're doing it to throw him off the scent."

"That is not what is happening," I hiss sharply. "My feelings for Sawyer and wanting to protect Ashton are two separate things.

Silence.

Then Patrick speaks. "Wait. You havefeelingsfor Sawyer?"

Eep. I guess that slipped out. I clear my throat. "Yeah. I do."

"Feelings feelings?" he checks.

"Yep."

"But…he's a guy," Silas points out.

"I'm aware of that."

"You can't, though," Patrick says.

"I…can't?"

"Yeah." Patrick's eyes twinkle. "You're the token straight one in the group."

I chuckle. "That might not be entirely true anymore."

My revelation about my sexuality is met with a series of head bobs and Beckett muttering, "Always figured you might be at least bi-curious."

"So what are you going to do?" Silas asks.

"I don't know. I'm worried about how this might affect us."

"Don't worry about that," Rocky says in his deep, commanding voice, his MoM shirt stretched to maximum capacity across his sculpted chest. "We can deal with the falloutof anything." I guess he'd know a thing or two about that given the endless PR clusterfucks he finds himself in. "All you need to focus on is doing what's right for you. And for Ashton."

"Thanks. And that's my biggest concern." I glance toward the crib. "All I want is to protect my son. I don't want him to be the subject of any negative comments or shit online because of my actions."

"That makes sense," Tanner says. "Not to generalize, but suburban moms can be a tricky demo."

"Not to mention the gays. They can be fickle as fuck," Patrick chimes in. "Although, you could pivot into zaddy-dom with this news."

"I don't know what that means." I lift my hand when Patty opens his mouth to explain. "And I'm okay with not knowing."

"We all have your back, Ky," Rocky declares.

"One hundred percent."

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