Page 56 of Life After

“Could it be worked out?” Suzanne asked, brow quirked.

“As friends, I’d love to work it out. We’ve known one another for so long. But relationship-wise, that part of my life is over. Who I was when Ruby died…died with her.” Jen hadn’t known how powerful that one sentence would be, but her chest ached as she allowed it to sink in. “That includes my relationship with Lizzie.”

“I think she may surprise you.” Suzanne slid her hand from Jen’s and placed it in her own lap. “The connection is still there. Even I felt…somethingas I watched you both.”

“There was life before and life after.” Jen shifted closer to Suzanne, shrugging her blazer off and resting it around Suzanne’s shoulders when she shivered. “Youare that life after. Not Lizzie or anyone else. Just you, babe.” Jen dipped her head and brought her lips to Suzanne’s ear. “It’syouthat I want. It’syouthat I love.”

Suzanne pressed her cheek to Jen’s as she said that, the tension in the air slowly falling away. “I’ve never been insecure, but I don’t know. There’s something about losing you again that terrifies me.”

“I’m not going anywhere.” Jen drew back and brushed Suzanne’s hair from her face. “God, you’re so beautiful.”

Suzanne blushed, but she didn’t take her eyes off Jen.

“You ready to head back? I’ll walk you home.”

Suzanne searched Jen’s eyes as she took her hand. “Stay the night.”

“You’re sure?” Jen had no issues staying over at Suzanne’s, but she wanted Suzanne to be absolutely sure before they reconnected. Jen couldn’t deal with another fallout any time soon. She wanted this to work, of course she did, but sheneededone hundred percent certainty from Suzanne. “You’re absolutely sure I’m the right person for you?”

“I think I’m more sure now than I was the first time around.”

Jen grinned as she guided Suzanne to her feet. She pressed their bodies together, one arm around Suzanne’s waist, and kissed her softly. “Then, yes. I’ll stay the night.”

Chapter 20

Suzanne lay sprawledout on her bed, naked, wondering what the hell Jen was doing in the bathroom. Was she having some kind of performance anxiety because of recent events…was she backing out of this? God, Suzanne hoped not. Walking back from the restaurant with Jen only had Suzanne anticipating what the rest of their evening together would involve. Did she want to reconnect with Jen? More than anything in the world right now. But if Jen was having second thoughts, she needed her to communicate that.

In this moment, Suzanne craved her touch.

The bathroom door opened, and Jen wore an oversized hoodie that came down to the middle of her thighs. It certainly hadn’t been what she wore to dinner. Whyhadshe changed? “So, um…before we broke up, I kinda left some things here that I hadn’t mentioned to you before.”

Suzanne sat up on her elbows, her brows drawn. “What things?”

“Fun things.” Jen simpered as she crossed the room and crawled across the bed. When she settled between Suzanne’s legs, Suzanne sat up and draped her arms over Jen’s shoulders. “You may not be into it, and that’s absolutely fine, but?—”

Suzanne silenced Jen with a kiss. One that hopefully reminded Jen of what they’d shared prior to the messy weeks they spent without one another. When Jen moaned into Suzanne’s mouth, her hand fisted in Suzanne’s hair, her heart settled. Jen wasn’t backing out ofanythingtonight. That much was clear.

Jen drew back and touched her forehead to Suzanne’s. They gazed back at one another, Jen’s thumb stroking Suzanne’s cheek, her warm breath tickling Suzanne’s lips. “Those weeks without you were tough for me. I never want us to be in that position again.” Jen stole another kiss. “This is the position I’d rather be in with you. Right here, okay?”

Suzanne nodded as she smiled. “This is where I want to be, too.”

“About those things I mentioned,” Jen said as she shifted back a little. She took the hem of the hoodie in her hands and lifted it over her head to expose the strap-on she wore. “Is it something you could be into?”

Every last emotion Suzanne possessed tore through her at the speed of light. Just seeing Jen like this, entirely naked except for the harness around her waist… Oh, she was into it. She was into everything Jen threw at her. “Oh, my.” Jen visibly swallowed when Suzanne took hold of the length, her other hand sitting on Jen’s thigh. “I have a feeling you knowexactlywhat you’re doing with this.”

“Maybe.” Jen took her bottom lip between her teeth.

“Then you should show me the fun I’ve been missing.” Suzanne lay back and allowed her legs to fall open. Jen ghosted the back of her hand over Suzanne’s pussy, her back arching from the bed when she moaned. “Oh, Jen.”

Jen made herself comfortable between Suzanne’s thighs, spreading her lips as she dipped her head and stroked the flat of her tongue over Suzanne’s clit.

Suzanne lifted her hips, aware that she was already wet, needing more from Jen. When Jen sucked her clit into her mouth, it took everything within Suzanne not to fuck her face. God, she loved to experience new things with this woman. “S-shit, baby.” Suzanne did reach out this time, gripping the back of Jen’s head when she sucked harder. “Oh, fuck. Yes.”

“I’ve missed tasting you,” Jen whispered as she drew back and replaced her tongue with her thumb. “You’re so beautiful.”

Now wasn’t the time for blushing, but Suzanne felt her cheeks heat regardless. Jen always had a way of making Suzanne feel as though she was the very centre of her universe. She hoped that would never change.

“And I just…I need to be inside you, babe.” Jen slid a finger inside Suzanne, her stare pinning Suzanne to the bed as she looked back at her. And then Jen smirked when Suzanne tightened around the second finger she added. “You’re close.”

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