Page 64 of Even in the Dark

Dylan:That your go-to "returned kidnap victim" motivational speech?

Dr. Morley:Nope. That one was custom tailored just for you.

Dylan:I’m fucking flattered.

Dr. Morley:[laughs] So? Any idea at all what kinds of things interest you?

Dylan:Not sure.

Dr. Morley:What about the modeling? Is that something you see yourself continuing with in the future?

Dylan:Nope.

Dr. Morley:Hmm. Why’s that?

Dylan:Hated it.

Dr. Morley:Okay… What did you hate about it?

Dylan:Everything.

Dr. Morley:Was it your choice? To do the modeling contract?

Dylan:Yeah.

Dr. Morley:And what made you want to do it?

Dylan:[no response]

Dr. Morley:Do you not remember? Or—

Dylan:I remember. Just don’t want to talk about it.

Dr. Morley:Okay. Fair enough.

Dylan:[no response]

Dr. Morley:So here’s something I’m curious about, changing topics a little… If you had to pick one emotion to sum up each of the past three stages of your life—what would each one be? Say, if you think back to living with Eli… What is the first emotion that comes to mind?

Dylan:Not something I want to think about right now.

Dr. Morley:What if I say we’re not going to dig any further? That I’m just looking for one or two emotions?

Dylan:[no response]

Dr. Morley:Whatever emotion pops into your head first. Then we move on.

Dylan:[no response]

Dr. Morley:Come on. Just one emotion when you think aboutyour life with Eli.

Dylan:I guess… tension. Always fucking uneasy.

Dr. Morley:Okay. Good… Want to talk about that?

Dylan:No.

Dr. Morley:That’s fine. What about the months after the arrest, when you were living as an in-patient at Clive? One or two emotions that kind of sum up that period for you.

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