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No comment on your Georgia peach?

Me

I didn’t ride with the guys because I was already back at the hotel.

Me

ALONE!

Me

There is only one woman I want.

I see the bubbles start and stop over and over for a few minutes.

BB

But that wasn’t always the case, was it, Nate?

Me

What’s that supposed to mean?

BB

I may have blocked you, but I still saw things. Even when I wasn’t trying… I saw all the girls you were pictured with your freshmen year. You telling me you didn’t fuck any of them?

I hate the thought of her seeing those pictures and imagining that. In all reality, it wasn’t like that at all. It didn’t happen until the end of my freshmen year when football wasn’t occupying my time and it was taking everything in me to not call her and tell her everything about her sorry ass father.

Me

I won’t lie to you, Berkley. It’s no excuse, but I was so fucked up over you, and in my mind, I had to attempt to move on.

Me

News flash… It didn’t fucking work.

Trust me, if I could go back, there would be no one but her. I wish I could erase everyone before her and after her. They all meant nothing. I couldn’t tell you one thing about them. That probably makes it more fucked up, but it's the truth.

BB

Well, congrats. Those images are what pushed me into Carter’s bed.

I hate myself even more than I thought possible. But the vision of them sends me into a fit of anger, and I’m thankful Graham is in between me and the aisle leading to Graves.

Me

Oh, don’t worry, he told me all about it last night. Including your little Friday morning fun with him. I guess everything from this past week didn’t mean shit to you.

BB

I don’t owe you anything, Nathan.

Me

You may be right. But don’t act like you’ve been sitting here heartbroken whenyou moved on within weeks. With someone like him nonetheless.

BB

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