Page 38 of Doctor's Surprise Twins

I nod. “Yeah, I guess we do need to talk,” I reply, not bringing up the fact that Ally was a virgin. I know that will only bring up a whole new level of excitement for him. It brings up a whole new level of excitement for me, but that’s the last thing I need to be thinking about. I have to get this straightened out, not create a bigger mess.

“So…” he says, lifting his brows and letting them fall.

“What?”

He lifts his brows again and grins. “Huh?”

“What the fuck is that?”

He rolls his eyes now. “How was it?”

“Oh.” I chuckle. “It was…” Suddenly all I can think about is kissing her, touching her, and pushing my way inside her where I felt her heat and her tightness.

“Well?”

I snap out of my daze. “It was…” I take a deep breath, letting it out all at once. “It was great. Amazing. I can’t stop thinking about it.”

He grins wide now, nodding his head. “See? I told you. Now that you got your first out of the way, your life will get much easier, my friend.”

I stand up. “Yeah, let’s hope so, because I’d hate for it to become more difficult.” I leave his office and return to mine. I have lunch in there today, not wanting to see her or anyone else. It’s not until after noon that I’m in the same place as her again.

I’m at the nurse’s station, filling out a form when she exits a room and walks around the desk to sit behind the computer. She’s clicking the keys, not paying me any attention. Only moving my eyes, I glance around to make sure we’re alone. When I’m sure we are, I say quietly, “We need to talk.”

“Yes, we do,” she replies, not taking her eyes from the computer screen.

“My office, after your shift.”

She nods once, and I take my form and walk away.

The afternoon seems to go from moving quickly to dragging by. When I forget about her, things move quickly. When she sneaks back into my mind, time drags. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m anxious about this talk or if it’s because the monster inside of me is dying to see her again. I tell myself to keep that beast contained, that I have to be stronger than him.

I’ve just finished up for the day when there’s a knock on my door. “Come in,” I call out, closing my laptop. I look up as she steps in. She offers me a tight smile before closing the door behind her.

“Please, have a seat,” I say, motioning toward the chair across from me.

She nods and takes a deep breath—I can tell by the way her top grows tighter around her chest. She lets the breath go as she sits down, crossing her legs.

“Thank you for meeting with me. After yesterday… well, it was obvious that we needed to have a talk.”

She nods and wets her lips. “It’s not a problem. I wanted to talk to you as well, I just wasn’t sure how to go about it.”

My brows lift. “Yes, we seem to be in unfamiliar territory.” I clench my jaw as I try and force myself to say the words. “I want to apologize for what happened yesterday. That obviously wasn’t very professional, and I can’t apologize for it enough. What happened with us… it was great, and I enjoyed every minute of it, but it was a mistake that could cost us both our jobs. I just want to make sure you understand how serious this is, and why we have to stay quiet about it.”

“I realize that. I’m worried because I have to complete this to get the credits I need to graduate. If I get kicked out of theprogram, I’m screwed. It’s too late to find another place to do this externship. Now only will I not graduate on time, but that also eats into my wallet because I’ll have to spend money I don’t have to take this class again.”

I hold up my hand, hoping to calm her worries. “You’re not getting kicked out of the program. I won’t breathe a word of this to anyone,” I assure her. “We’ll carry on like this never happened. We’ll move on. I’ll go back to work as usual, and you can stay with the program. Does that sound good?”

She nods.

“There is one thing that I think we’ll need to get a handle on though.”

“What’s that?”

I take a deep breath. “This may just be one-sided, but…” I rub my jaw. “I lost my wife six years ago, and since then, I haven’t been the same. I haven’t grieved the way one should. I’ve buried myself in work and avoided friendships and relationships of any kind. You’re the first person I’ve been attracted to. I feel like you have a spell on me, and that’s what caused what happened yesterday. You understand, don’t you?”

She wets her lips and her cheeks burn hotter. Fuck, if that doesn’t turn me on. “I do. To be honest, I understand a little too well.” She uncrosses her legs, scoots her ass to the edge of her seat, and then crosses them the other way. “I’ve dated plenty over the years. I went out with boys in high school. I’ve dated several guys in college, and I’ve even been in a couple of semi-serious relationships. I know I have an unhealthy relationship with men in general because of the way I was brought up, and because of that, I’ve never been attracted to anyone before. I’ve seen guys that I thought were handsome, and I’ve felt drawn to some because of mutual interests or something, but I’ve never felt a true attraction. The kind of invisible force that feels like it’s pulling me toward someone. Until I met you. You have that samespell on me, Ethan. So, I understand the internal fight of giving yourself something you want deep down while struggling with the right and wrong of it.”

My cock twitches, and my stomach tightens with need. “If I had known you were a…” I skip saying that word. “I would’ve?—”

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