Page 86 of Voices

“Fuck. That feels so good,” I say as I get close to coming already.

But I quickly run out of steam and become too tired to keep bouncing. He plants his feet on the bed and along with his handson my hips, he pumps into me. Hard and fast. I start rambling nonsense at the power behind his thrusts.

I gasp as my cock starts to shoot cum all over him. I lose all my strength and fall forward, landing with my forehead between his pecs.

“That’s so fucking hot,” he pants. “But I’m not ready yet and I think you have another one in you.”

I moan as he grabs my cheeks and spreads them as he slows his thrusts, going as deep as he can. I moan louder when he pushes all the way in while pushing down on my hips.

“That’s it. Feel how deep I am, baby. Love how you feel around me,” his voice is back to that sexy deep tone that only comes out when we’re fucking.

“Mhm,” I whimper and nod into his chest.

He sits up, still in me, and leans against the headboard. I lift my head up and connect our foreheads then start rocking on his lap.

“Oh shit! Ohhh...” This new position has him even deeper, making me go wild. I rock as fast as I can and watch as my dick swells again.

“I’m right there, baby. Right…there.” He grabs my cock as he swells in me. He stroked me in time with my hips, bringing me to the edge in a matter of seconds. “Come with me. Come all over me as I fill your ass.”

He tightens his grip and uses his pointer finger and thumb to stroke up from my base to the slit, making me come again.

“Yes, yes, yes! Ahhh…fuck. I’m coming in your ass baby. Mmm,” he gasps for breath as I slow my thrusts and then come to a stop.

He hugs me to him as he relaxes back against the headboard again. We sit like that until he slips out of me and our breathing is back to normal.

“That was amazing. I’ve never had sex without a condom before. I’m glad my first time was with you.”

He pushes my hair back with both hands and pulls my face to his as he kisses me deeply. When he pulls back there’s a new look in his eyes.

“I’m falling in love with you, Charlie. Every moment we aren’t together, I’m counting down the minutes until you’re back in my arms. I felt like there was a piece of me missing before but now I feel whole. You, with your insanely good artistic talent, you’re love for stars, your weird obsession with blue aliens,” he traces over my eyelids, “these stunningly beautiful eyes,” over my cheeks, “these adorable freckles,” he rubs his thumbs in the center of my cheeks, “and these sexy as hell dimples. Everything about you is perfect.” He kisses the tears that are now falling down my cheeks. “You were made for me to love and cherish. I love you, beautiful.”

I’m lost for words as he continues kissing my tears away. I try to say the words back, but they won’t come out no matter how badly I want to say them. He must see it in my eyes because he places a lingering kiss on my forehead before whispering in my ear.

“It’s okay if you aren’t ready to say it. The way you look at me, I can see the love and trust I don’t see you give to others. I’m not going anywhere so when you are ready, I’ll be here.”

I nod and wipe away the tears that won’t stop.

He climbs from the bed with me in his arms and walks to the bathroom. I stand on my own as he washes us, lost in my thoughts.

He loves me?

I don’t think I even know what it feels like to be loved.

My father doesn’t love me. He’s told me countless times and my mother might love me in her own way, but I can’t remember a time she said the actual words. Benji loved me when wewere growing up, but we've been growing apart since we started college. Now anytime we see each other I'm invisible to him, like an older brother ignoring his annoying little brother. Even though I'm six minutes older than him.

I guess if I’d ask Lily if she loves me, she'll say yes but I feel like she'd have to say that since we've shared a lot over the years. She inserted herself into my life and just hasn’t seen how weak of a person I am.

But I might be starting to sense what it’s like to be loved. Or at least I think I am. Shane has done more for me over the last month than anyone in my family has ever done.

That's because you're a waste of space!

Shane's delusional if he thinks he loves you!

There's no way someone as kind and sweet as Shane could ever see you more than the piece of shit you really are!

"Charlie!"

I open my eyes that I didn't notice I had closed, as the sting on my scalp from pulling my hair registers.

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