Perhaps for the first time in his life, Lord Kargorr was nervous.
If he had learned anything about Cedar in his time with her, it was that she’d never been allowed to have things that children should have. She worked instead of playing and slept on a hard floor with all of her siblings. Since she’d begun living in his tent, Kargorr had seen how she loved the luxury of the furs. But it wasgrrosektradition to pile a bed high with wolf and bear and fox. He knew after enough raids of human homes that this was not how humans did things.
He carried his gift rolled up under his arm, back to his tent as darkness fell over the camp. He found he liked how much later the sun set down in the lowlands, and during the winter, it would grant them even more time to work. And there was much work to be done for the next stage of his plan.
Once again he would send Orgha away, this time with a different missive:come and join me, it would say. Kargorr also planned to offer gifts to yet anotherparog, one even farther afield, and had to choose another of his warriors to represent him.
Samrak, the half-orc, would be perfect. He was an emblem of what Kargorr sought to create. He had the strength and dedication of an orc, but the agility and eyesight of a human. It made him deadly on the battlefield, skilled with a hammer, and clever with his tongue. He would make a perfect emissary.
Now that the plans had been made, it was time for Kargorr to present his token to hisyapiraand to try to earn her back.
When he slipped inside the tent, he found her on the floor, sewing together Kiya’s bed. The cat had outgrown it again, so she must have torn out the stitches to make it bigger. Soon her beloved animal wouldn’t be able to sleep in their tent anymore and would have to start integrating into the group that lived outside the camp.
Cedar looked up when Kargorr entered, and for the briefest moment, he thought she looked pleased to see him. Then her eyebrows lowered, and she dropped her head once more to continue her work.
“I brought you something,” he said, settling down next to her. Her hands stilled as he set the blanket in his lap. It was a bright color—many colors, woven together—and rather bulky. Kargorr unrolled it so it swept over her knees. She dropped her hands to the fabric, and her eyes went wide.
“What is this?” Cedar asked, sampling it with the pads of her fingers. “Some kind of wool? Or alpaca, maybe?” Her eyes were big and her lips had parted in surprise.
Yes. This was a good gift.
“It’s a blanket that will keep you warm,” Kargorr said. He took the end and carefully slung it over her shoulders, tucking it neatly under her chin so she was wrapped up in it. She petted it softly, and pulled it even closer, like she was hiding inside it. Kargorr looped his arm around her back, intending to bring her to his side so he could smell her, but she stiffened underneath him.
“It’s lovely,” she said, clenching the ends of the blanket. “Someone with a lot of craftsmanship made this.”
Kargorr nodded slowly. It was certainly finer and more delicate than anything he owned.
Silence passed between them. Kargorr placed his chin atop her head, wrapping his other arm around her, too, but she did not soften to him.
He hated this coldness between them. It wasn’t right for an orc to be so detested by hisyapira. He wondered if he could ever make right what he had done.
Cedar
It truly was a beautiful blanket, with a swirling pattern Cedar knew must have been difficult to weave. How many hours had someone labored over this blanket? She turned the question over in her mind as she felt along the soft fabric. What was it made of that it was so smooth under her fingertips?
But Kargorr did not know the answer to these questions. Whoever had owned this blanket, whoever had known its story, was gone.
Still, he had brought it back with him from his raid, thinking of her. A tiny spark of warmth flared in her heart, knowing she’d been on his mind while he was away, just as he’d been on hers. But then she thought of last night, how poisoned his return had been, and squeezed the blanket tight in her hands.
“It’s time for bed, little deer,” Kargorr said to her, smoothing down her hair with one hand. He rose to his feet and peered down at her when she didn’t move. She found herself trapped for a moment in time, in a different world where she hadn’t run away, where he hadn’t chased her in a rage, where everything was as it should be rather than the tangled mess it was now.
He stooped down in front of her, and Cedar couldn’t resist looking up into his face. She took in the brutish, jutting jaw that held his big tusks, that strange nose, the pure night of his eyes and the puckered scar that crossed from his temple to his chin... it was all so familiar to her and yet now, completely foreign.
Slowly, Kargorr reached out and slipped one finger into her palm, and it was big enough that he could sweep up all her fingers. He lifted her hand until her knuckles rested on his chest.
Cedar had to look away from his dark eyes as they burrowed into her.
“Please sleep in this bed with me,” he said, leaning down to brush his lips over the back of her hand. “You are safe here. I promise you.”
Whether or not that was true, Cedar didn’t know, but she doubted she had a choice. She got to her feet at last. He carried the blanket to the bed, and when she was settled, he covered her with it. Kargorr removed his clothes, climbed in beside her and drew her into his arms. Cedar wondered if he might try to fuck her, so she held all her muscles tense.
Kargorr let out a heavy breath. “Not tonight, little deer,” he said, leaning down to brush his nose over her hair. “Just sleep.”
And after a time, wrapped in the soft gift he had brought for her, she did. But now in her dreams, the blood was everywhere, swallowing both of them—and they were drowning.
When Cedar awoke, she was surrounded by warmth. The blanket was tugged up to her chin, and big arms were wrapped tight around her, pressing her close to Kargorr’s enormous body. There was something long and thick nudging at the space between her thighs, caressing her ass. Instinctively she rolled her hips back against it, and she heard a soft grunt. Lips touched the crown of her head, working their way down to her ear, where she could feel his hot breath.
It was only then, when he rubbed himself against her back and her scratches burned, that Cedar recoiled, remembering what had transpired the night before last. Kargorr’s grip on her loosened, letting her move away.