Page 103 of The Soldier

“Fuck.” I roar loudly and drop the phone from my ear. “Fuck! I’m going to fucking kill him!”

I kick the wall.

I hear Aidan yelling and lift the phone again.

“Do that and you’ll end up in the slammer. Even Josh and I won’t be able to get you out of that. Stay there. Cole is coming over right now.”

They preempted this. He waited to call me. Jesus fucking Christ. Even though I would’ve done the same.

I have to see her.

She’s mine.

“Aidan.” I plead in a tone I’ve never heard come out of me.

“Buddy, she doesn’t want anyone but Briar with her right now. Let the medical people do what they need to do. I’ll keep you updated.”

Noooo.

My heart shatters as his words confirm my fear, and I collapse onto the floor in a lump.

I should have protected her. She called me. I failed the woman I’m falling in love with because of my stupid ego. I walked away and left her with that fucking asshole Roger who I know is a demented piece of shit.

“Marsh. Tell me you hear me.” Aidan demands.

“Yeah. I hear you.” My voice is barely audible and rough as hell. “Tell mesomething. Aidan, tell me something.”

He’s quiet for a moment as I grip my short hair painfully, almost yanking it from my head.

“Trina will be okay. She’s strong and has a lot of people who love her.”

Yeah, including me.

But she doesn’t want me.

I don’t blame her. When she needed me the most I didn’t answer her call. Fucking hell. The need to destroy something is overwhelming. I’ve never felt so powerful and useless in my entire goddamn life.

My little wolf might be strong, but she’s also defensive. It’s not the same. Like all of us, Trina wants to be loved. She wants to feel safe.

She wasn’t, because of me.

Roger did this because of me. I know this more than my own goddamn name.

“We need to find him.” I growl. “He’ll run.”

“He can try. I have a team heading to his hotel right now. If he’s not there, we’ll find him.” Aidan promises me. “Full resources have been diverted.”

I can’t just sit here and do nothing. I feel like a trapped tiger ready to explode.

“Put me in.”

“Wait for Cole,” Aidan responds, and the knock at the door in the next moment lets me know he’s here.

“I need to see her, Aidan.” I get to my feet, stride across the room, and rip open the door.

Cole acknowledges me and the phone at my ear with a nod and follows me inside.

“I know. It’s not my call, Marsh. We have to respect her needs at this time.”

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