Page 13 of Pretty Little Fears

“DamnBlair, you look hot!You’redefinitely getting laid tonight.”Thecomment makes an unwanted blush creep up my cheeks.

Meaninglesssexual encounters have never been my thing.Meaningfulsexual encounters have also never been my thing, becauseI’venever had one.I’venever donethatthing or anything in relation.Ihad my first kiss back in high school and it was nothing special.

Sincemy father passed,Ihaven’t dated much.Ihave yet to experience that part of life.Thesmile that seemed to be stuck to my face starts to falter at the thought of my dad.BeforeIcan think about it for too long,Aspen'svoice pulls me from my thoughts.

“Areyou okay?”Hervoice is full of concern as her eyebrows pinch together.

Shakingoff the lingering feeling,Ismile at her, “Yeah,I’mfine.“Iwas not fine, butIwasn’t going to ruin our night.

Aspen'squestion brings me out of my thoughts and into the present moment.Startingon my hair,Icurl it into loose waves.OnceI’mfinished with my hair and makeup,Ihead back to my room.

Chewingon my bottom lip,Istruggle with what to wear.Iwant to pick the perfect outfit for our first party.Ipull out countless amounts of jeans, tops, and shoes but nothing stands out.I’mabout to give up when in the back of my closet,Ispot a brown two-piece set consisting of a mini skirt and tube top.Ismile asIgrab the items and a white thong.

Slippingon my set and stepping in front of my mirror,Iturn and inspect myself at all angles.Theskirt hugs my ass nicely and the tube top stops right above my belly button, giving a flirty flair to my look.Mymind travels to the thought ofEmmett’slarge hands and how his grasp dug into my skin.

“Blair!”Aspencalls from the kitchen.Lettingmy daydream fade,Igrab a pair of matching black heeled boots that stop right below my knee.Accessorizingwith dainty gold jewelry,Isteal one last look at my reflection.Satisfied,Imake my way back to the living room to meet up with the others.

“Okay!Timefor shots!”Aspenshouts over the music.Shegrabs my hand and drags me towards the kitchen.AllMyFriendsbySnakehipsthumps around me whileVerenahands out shots of tequila.

I'venever been a huge partier.Iwas too busy going to doctor appointments and chemo treatments with my dad, no late nights allowed.Ihave a feelingBlackwoodwill continue to give me many of my firsts in life asIlook around at the other girls and take them in.

Aspenis sporting a high ponytail and a sparkly, hot pink mini dress that is so tight it probably needs to be cut off to be removed.Shelooks like an actualBarbiedoll that’s come to life, her makeup perfectly done and not a hair out of place.

Loreleihas barely anything on.She’swearing a sheer white bralette and her denim, high waisted booty shorts are being eaten by her ass.Blackeyeliner is drawn heavily and contrasts with her green eyes, bordering on terrifying.

It’sthe complete opposite of her clean cut look.Withher uptight and anal personality, you’d never guess she was the type to let loose and have fun.

Myeyes jump toVerenawho’s in all black, wearing a matching two-piece set similar to mine, except hers is allV.She’swearing a fishnet shirt with bigger holes and on top, a tank made of velvety material matching her pants.

Sheis dripping with silver jewelry,Idon’t think there’s a finger without a ring or space on either ear for more piercings.There’salready a great height distance between us, but her black chunky platforms add a few more inches and she towers over us all.Hermakeup is smokey, dark, and moody.

Weeach take another shot before we’re ready to head out.Irun through my mental checklist, phone, keys, wallet, and lip gloss.Weall exit andVerenalocks the door behind us.Thecrisp air of fall kisses my skin but the alcohol running through my veins, thankfully, keeps me warm.

Ihad one drink and a couple of shots, soI'ma little tipsy.Notwanting to lose an ounce of control,Idecide to wait a bit before drinking anymore.Aswe venture further, the loud and rowdy crowd comes into view and students are scattered all over the yard and porch, making it known we've reached our destination.

Icome to an abrupt halt, causing the girls to stop in their tracks alongside me.Iknow this house.

Needingconfirmation,Ihesitantly ask, “Whosehouse is this?”

“It'stheRSBhouse.”Loreleisnorts like it's a secretIhaven't been privy to.

“Right…Whichis what?”Iask with furrowed brows.

Lettingout a huff, clearly annoyed thatIwasn’t aware of the legendaryRSB,Loreleiexplains, “Itstands for theRedSkullBrotherhood.Theboys in that house are all a part of it.Butit’s not limited to just the four of them.Manyhouses are underRSBprotection because they all belong to the brotherhood.Noone knows what they do or who they serve, but it's mysterious and it's hot and we know nothing bad can happen at their parties because we’re under their roof.Anymore questions?”

Shefinishes, rolling her eyes at me.

Shakingmy head,Idust off the frustration thatI'mfeeling.Aspencouldn't have known the party was atEmmett’shouse.She’snot at all likeLoreleiwho seems to have frequented the grounds.Theyare polar opposites,Iwonder how they get along so well.Aspenis a literal ray of sunshine andLoreleiis…Lorelei.

Lookingup at the house,Itake a deep breath.I'mdetermined to have a good night with my friends.Iwon't letEmmettruin that for me.Withmy newfound resolution,Iloop my arm withAspen’s, make my way up those familiar porch steps, and head inside.

Insidethe house, the bass vibrates so hard,Ifeel it through every inch of my body.Lookingaround, there are students everywhere laughing, drinking, and dancing.

Someare making out, but overall everyone is enjoying the present moment.Ibask in all the lightheartedness that surrounds me and feel a small smile slowly sneak onto my face.

AspenandImake our way to the kitchen where there is a guy restocking the fridge with beverages.Heintroduces himself asJaden, one of the occupants of the house and, therefore a member of the “mysterious” brotherhood, according toLorelei.

Hehas light brown shaggy hair and mesmerizing blue eyes.Hissleeves are rolled up revealing arms covered in patchwork tattoos.He’sdressed in all black, looking sophisticated and clean.Awarm smile spreads across his face and he greets us.

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