Page 28 of Carter

His hand skirted along my stomach and toward the edge of my pants. He unbuttoned them and slid his hand inside. My eyes shut tighter, my mouth opened, barely kissing him now as he distracted me with the pressure of his hand where I needed him the most.

“This will make it better, yeah?” he whispered against my mouth.

Breathless, I nodded.

He gently rubbed me, gliding his fingers skillfully along my clit.Oh, my God.I bucked into him, my ass pressing againsthis jeans. He was rock hard, and it didn’t get any better as I continued to press into him. “Fuck,” he cursed, dropping his head between my neck and shoulder. I felt his hot breaths and random licks. He was tasting my skin as I writhed helplessly.

The feeling was so intense, and he prolonged my release, fingering me like a goddamn master. I didn’t think someone could give me this kind of pleasure without knowing my body first. But he seemed to excel at anything when it came to those dexterous hands.

He sucked my neck hard and sped up the movements, stroking my wet folds before teasingly pressing into me with his finger.Holy shit.I moaned, completely uncaring of how loud I was as the feeling tore through my being, so unbelievably strong and hard, I was shaking uncontrollably, moving my ass against him as I rode it out.

My ears were ringing, my body sagged, and my vision was slightly spotty. I blinked a few times, barely registering his feather-light kisses against my cheek before he removed his hand and wrapped his arm around me. Aside from the rain still blasting against the car, the silence within was heavy. I felt its weight and wondered what to say to dispel it.

“Thank you,” I weakly muttered, feeling a little embarrassed by how desperate I was for him several moments ago. God, had I no shame?

“For what, Leah?” he asked softly.

“For…” For what really? “For…fingeringme, I guess.” And not deciding to stick your dick inside me without protection, because that would have been stupid.

I felt his chest vibrate lightly with laughter. “Anytime.”

I smiled a little. My cheeks were crimson, and I was still on a high after that massive wave of pleasure. Jesus, I didn’t think it could feelthatgood coming from somebody else.

“No one’s ever done that to you, right?” he then asked curiously. He tried to play it off like it was casual conversation, but I sensed he really needed to know.

“No,” I answered.

“Good.”

“Hopefully it’s just you from now on,” I added, hinting that I truly wanted more.

I felt him nod and mutter a weak, “Yeah,” before he went quiet altogether.

I didn’t like the quiet response in him, and I suddenly questioned if we were going to go back to before. Like my first kiss, something that had played in my mind every spare moment.

Did Carter care for me like I did for him? Was this just temporary? I couldn’t handle the thought, so I cast it aside and closed my eyes. Unfortunately, I wasn’t very successful.

You’re not going to win this.A tiny voice in me whispered with heartbreaking clarity.You can’t win a game of unrequited love.

Carter

Black and white

The surroundings of our first real kiss, that night

runs through my memory like a stream.

And fuck, I’d wrap you up if I could,

lay your gentle heart in my hand

and give you all you deserve.

Black and white,

The contrast in us like day and night

you were the picture of purity; the light in my dark.

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