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His expression was totally worth the coughing fit I had when I choked on my spoonful of ice cream.

Later that night, when I was tucked into bed under my nice, clean sheets, I turned the whole evening over in my head again.

I was still struggling to believe this was real. There were suddenly so many things that were unsaid between us, and I didn’t know where to go from here. Part of me was still dumbstruck Taylor said he’d choose me. I wasn’t anyone particularly special.

I sighed, rolling over in bed and burying my face in my pillow. I was so confused about everything, and it made me feel nauseous. It made me wish I had someone who I could talk everything out with, someone who might understand and could offer a fresh perspective.

I rolled over again and grabbed my phone from its place on my bedside table, pulling open the Pornblr app. I did have one person I could ask. I just had to hope he wouldn’t mind me asking.

thick boy in laceHey are you up?

mr. smithOf course, sweet boy. Is everything okay?

thick boy in laceYeah… I think so. I know we haven’t spoken in ages, but I could really, really use your help right now

thick boy in laceIt’s about my hook-up

thick boy in laceI have no idea what to do

mr. smithIt’s okay. We’ll figure it out

mr. smithWhat’s got you all wound up? Did something happen? Did he hurt you?

The breath I didn’t know I’d been holding came out in a rush. Everything was going to be okay. Mr. Smith would help me figure everything out, and then I could go from there.

thick boy in laceNo, it’s not bad! He’s amazing, and I realised I think I’m in love with him, and I have no fucking clue what to do =/

thick boy in laceLike, we said this was just sex, but I don’t think it is anymore

thick boy in laceSomething’s changed. I just don’t know what. Like he’s been taking care of me because I’ve been sick, and he made me food and made me shower. When I’ve been ill before, I’ve usually looked after myself, but this time he wanted to take care of me. And then we were watching a movie and we ended up having this kinda emotional moment? Idk. It felt like something big, but we got interrupted by my other roommate which sort of ruined it

thick boy in laceSorry that was an essay lol

The tight band in my stomach eased. Just typing everything out had made me a little more relaxed. I knew I couldn’t expect Mr. Smith to magically solve all my problems, but maybe he could help me figure out what my next move should be.

mr. smithIt’s okay. It’s what I’m here for

mr. smithLook, you know I’m no relationship expert, but even from where I’m sitting it’s clear as fucking day that you’re in love with this guy. I don’t think there’s any “think” about it

thick boy in laceYeah, you’re right. I don’t think I love him. I know I love him

mr. smithGood boy, I’m proud of you

mr. smithAnd I think you’re right. It’s not about sex anymore

mr. smithYou’ve told me that he takes care of you when you’re sick, buys you pretty, expensive panties, fucks you like a dream and wants to spend extra time with you afterwards

mr. smithNo way are you guys are just fuck buddies

mr. smithYou’re pretty much in a relationship. You just haven’t realised it yet ;)

thick boy in laceReally? You don’t think he’s just being nice?

mr. smithBaby, those are all things I’d do for my boyfriend, not some random piece of ass

mr. smithHe obviously cares for you. I just don’t think he knows it. He seems kinda dense from what you’ve said lol

thick boy in laceTbh I think I’m dense too. We’re just two idiots stumbling around in the dark!

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